Annoying..

Feelin distant from some close friends these days..but honestly I don't really care as much as I should -__-
Why is it that you'd say stuff like that about me but not about others? What did I ever do to you..
I should start being mean and tough like you cool kidz. LOL
Seriously it's getting on everyones nerves how you think you're so cool -_-
You're not cool and not a princess so stop acting like it!!
Give some respect to others and maybe they'll start respecting you and stop talking behind your back..
Please & thank you. Goodbye. (:

Why you guys all gotta be so selfish!!
It's nice to think of people other than yourself yenno..
Don't do what you wanna do all the time & make everything revolve around you and your plans..
We need more caring & loving people in dis world...

It feels like i'm trying too hard to keep friendships together..
Why does it seem like you don't care !! I bet if I stopped talking to some people they wouldn't even try to start conversations or anything.
Used & reused over and over ..no?


Friends forever, through thick & thin..?

...Nah. Prove it.

hebert

Why you gotta be so cruel? -sigh-
Today in chem class I was eating my granola bar as usual..and hebert comes to me and stops the whole lesson/class and lectures me about not eating in class..she was like "Michelle eating is a referral did you know? why do you eat in class? don't eat in here okay? just don't." and like the whole class was staring at me and Joe started laughing super loud LOL and now the whole class thinks I'm the fatty LOL=__=
She never told me to stop eating before omg.... but it's okay cus she motivated me to exercise daily now LOL heh

Day 1 exercise: ran in place ..for ten min LOL fail.

Worst feeling

is when you feel like your parents gave up on you...My whole family was lecturing me about school an college and everything and kept telling me how important it is. YES I know all of that do you think I don't? -_- So annoying how they just put me down and start laughing at me when I talk about school. How am I supposed to motivate myself if my family doesn't even care. It's not like I have zero chance into getting into a good school..-__- So why in the worldd are you guys already giving up on me..makes me feel like ugh. T_T Just cause I'm not super smart like my brother doesn't mean I can't do other things. Sigh you guys suck and I will remember this forever.

Hallo~

Today was chem and spanish finals... omgosh -_- people told me that 1a started at 8am so i came at 8. and it started at 730. -_- ..wow i h8 u all. so i got to hebert's class right when the bell rang and ....
me: *knock knock*
- 0.2 seconds later -
hebert: class.starts.at.7.30.
sigh. so took my chem final in da whole 2 hours but it wasnt that bad. and plus shes curving it so =).
then, spanish final..... kaskjdkads i bet i got a B or C or something omg :( it was kinda hard haha

afterschool;;
was gonna go study with people but everyone bailed out and stuff so i had no where to go -__- .. they all live in db so they can just go home but i live in rowland so its not so simple. i was already in a bad mood & that just made it worse...ugh today was so bad. i just had on of those "days" where i felt like crying cus everything just piles up.
well joe was kind enough to take me to lee's with him :) had a good talk !
then talked on ze phone w/ junie <3 made each other happy. w00t. LOL.
then my mom bought me clothes cus i was sad HAHAHA. got new jeans yayy. and then now she brought me food ^_^ i love my mom. caring + best smell = my mama <3


on the plus side, my pants size is now minus three from before LOL made me happy :)

heppy mood

Is slowly turning into non heppy mood. Is it just me or is everyone extra mean and rude these days..=_=
People can be so immature and selfish..and I hate it when people take things too far... -_- Youre not funny when you try to be mean to people on purpose okie?
and I know it's just a joke but when someone degrades me and puts me down it ruins my day..and if my friends are laughing and and just watching it happen it pisses me off... if someone did that to my friend I wouldn't just keep laughing :/ that's sad lol.
Lately, all the small little things ruin my mood... and maybe it doesn't seem like it but I do remember like every bad thing someone does to me ..even if I try to forget I can't. =_= I have good memory when it comes to that hehe. Maybe that's why I treat others with more respect than some people..and I see them as a bigger and better person in my life.
K end rant. Gonna sleep. Byeeeee.

tewday

math finals today..idk how I did LOL whenever I say it's easy I do bad..but I only need like a C to keep my B on da classs.
Afterschool, davids such a -_- he would just leave me and sharon. so we walked to hmart..the LONG way cus we walked to davids car but he didn't drop us off so yeah-_-. studied there and ate and met up with devin and sarahpang. went to joes and studied for chem! kind of a fail LOL. kept getting distracted... gawsh can't a girl and a guy play together and not be accused of liking each other?! LOL hahah. left at 11ish so late so tired...

yoohoo!

today I woke up so well idk how to explain (: chem was fun cus we got to talk the whole time and Joe and I just talked about everything LOL so funny. -stomach growls- LOLOL. I'm happy I'm comfy with you and idc if you get grossed out k :)

afterschool;;
cof ...got kathy as my buddy dangit . T_T sigh oh well but she's kinda entertaining I guess ..-_- LOL but yay got group D with mizz jenny kim once again! fate :') got yummy food from cof but gawd kathy just ruins it and made me wanna throw up. the whole time jenny was just helping me with her and HAHAHA so funny . "love meeee tenderr love meee sweeet~~" "can u take pictcha of me lik dis" -poses with :o face- oh and can't forget when she ate jennys hair tie HAHA!! and jennys karems new gf LOLahsjIwj dang jenny gettin all dem cof kids ;)

ahhh my sisters laugh is so annoying ...she laughs JUST like her best friend and when she comes over it's like double times worse =_= sgskdjalahsh
k time to do my 3 minute workout !!!

yes!

productive weekend !! I did a lot more than I thought I would. :) Slept 27 hours LOL caught up on all my sleep so hopefully I won't be tired during finals. Finished all my homework on Saturday!! And went to tutor on Sunday. :') Kinda happy.
But LOL finals boo you-_- I'm worried about chem and english T_T idk anything in chem and my english teachers putting every single book/story kind of :( and didn't really read the books only like portions and sparknotes LOL.....ahhh.
oh well I get what I get -_- just gotta study more but seriously idk how to study asdfghjkl.
cof tomorrowww I'm kind of essited idk why HAHA even though everyones ditching ......
yawn* I am tired ...Hahaha I'm such a fat bear ....

GOOD SLEEP

I slept at 11pm and woke up at 1pm. 14 HOURS YES!! I feel so refreshed and great. <3 Hehe sorry people on aim LOL I fell asleep haha. I want to sleep more but my sister woke me up -_- Gawd she has no manners seriously. She just runs into the room while I'm sleeping and starts singing wth? And turns on all the lights and starts talking to me....asdfgjkl I wish we didn't share rooms LOLOL jk I'm too scared to sleep alone.

yesterday;;
Afterschool went to class 302 to eat with the girlsss. Chinese foods so salty but delicious. Ate some bingsoo omg so good. LOLOL ran out of there like monkeys cus we didn't pay the right amount HAHA. Went to Joes/danielyis place after! Snuck into daniel's house and caught up with gina <3 ohh how I missed you so~ Finallly play date soon!! :) Went to jae's house after and vincent, eddie, and I played with the puppies for like one hour HAHA. We were just holding the puppies and they all fell asleep on us so we just talked and stuff. They're sooo cute. I hope jae sells me one... At around 7:45 teacher jacinda picked me up with the senior girlz and off to church !! Havent been to fnbs in like a month and it felt weird but good to be thereee. But I was so sleepy... I feel so bad cus I fell asleep o_o LOL and I was like resting my head on julie and I knocked out and pyun probably saw me cus we were sitting in the way front.. :/ I even fell asleep during small group discussion...is that possible LOLOL with only like 3 other people constantly talking hahahah. Then I went home and knocked out.

Today;;
study.....

irenejeon

so last night I texted Irene asking her what her blogspot was and she was like. i don't remember my url ...adsdkfjslh I'll send you it tomorrow!
and tomorrow comes and her url is just her name ... really now LOL
or maybe you just didn't want me to follow you
O I Cz HOW IT IS. k see you @ church btw can you go to emp's with me.... :)

bruddas

I'm so glad I have good close guy friends (= I think all of them are becoming more mature and nicer and more outgoing and I loovee it <333 I love how we can always be ourselves and we're all so comfy :).
weelll today was another adventure LOL. afterschool; drove around with Vincent and David and waited for jae cus he had track.. met crystal. left and went to Colima burger and omg it's so good. heaven in my mouth I have to admit LOL. went to egmaes but was so bored and tired -_-. ate some CREPE yummy. and then library and saw junie Karan Sarahk ! then went to jaess where I PlaYEd with his pups LOLOL. -___- hahahah I hope a get a puppy I'd be so happy :) came home and ate mandooguk agAIN but idc it so good.
another goood day :)

Its been a month...

since I been takin dem pills or my estomago LOL
the doctor said the side effects would kick in around a month ....
and yeup he was right. -____-
body aches everywhere..... and I feel like throwing up on everybody LOLOL
nausea ...now I know the feeling haha
plus my cramps are super bad ...it's like hard for me to walk straight haha
owwieeeee I h8 u cyst

goodnight for reals LOL :)

HUGS

oh how I miss them so...why does nobody hug me anymore...
cmon I don't think I'm that dirty LOL sigh
today was a grrreat day <33333 everything felt so good and happy and the atmophere and people were just :).


k now for the malo part of my blog LOL
disappointment...I hate the feeling of it. idk why I'm so botheredhahaha maybe cus I care too much about my friends hehe ...yeah
boooo I miss the past ..I miss having those fun days with all the people your comfy with and just talking and laughing and smiling (=
but of course I love now !! and how I made new friends and stuck with all my oldies except a couple. :)

hahaha okay time to sleep
goodnight bloggerz mehehe

GSC

I love church (: I always look forward to Sundays nowadays. Being on praise team makes me feel like I have a responsibilty at church...sometimes I don't think I deserve it cus I feel so distant from God but I think if I wasn't in it I'd always be coming to church late and I'd never go to fnbs. And plus it's a good way to serve and it's something I like to do.

Small groups...oh mayn I love my church girls. I like how it's so easy to open up and talk about our relationships with God and stuff. Most of them go to the same school as I do so we always keep each other on check and yeah. (: Honestly without them there and without teacher stacey I'd be a big messs. And I love how we can just call each other and tell each other how we're doing. And if we have problems or we feel like we're growing distant spiritually we give advice and everything. <3

Yay. Forever my sisters in Christ. <3333

STOMACH

Y U B LIK DAT?? :'( in total today i took 5 pills already LOL and last night i took 5 ........ overdose oh yah. hahha just kidding.
today was so cold ..... i got an A on my spanish test omg <333 marty's so hard so i am quite delighted that i got an A <3 :')
i think i'm gonna start using blogspot more .... tumblr's so public and i have random followers that i barely even talk to ....
but blogspots more yeAh and just yeah ... LOL :) i feel more comfortable writing my personalzzzzzzz here cus on tumblr , people just assume what i'm writings about them or they'll think i'm all emo when i'm just writing a simple 'sigh i'm so mad' ha ha ha ha ha haauwj