today is quite the day oh yes

happy for no reason again LOL big smile on my face :DDDD
played cards with john jason daniel and sharon during band. Sharon and I lost and they were like GERMAN TORTURE!!! cheaters..
so me and Sharon switched back and forth every card omg death.....T_T
tomorrow we have a 1950s thing .... eat ice cream and dress/talk like 1950s people hahaha
afterschool had cof and kathy was extra scary like she was CRAZY... but I feel bad for her :( sigh poor little kathy.....
got in trouble three times today woopeee~
went to tutor after til 8 =_= yeap
my sister got a D on her test and my parents yelled at her so much... so sad :( she cried and yeah LOL :'(
boring day bit still pretty happy I donno why (=

aw boo..

gotta wait another month to get my license :'( why does this keep happening to me.. license gods don't want me -sigh- something always comes up or something dbangjeima...
todaayy went to church and I was the teacher for the day HAHAH. but only for my group...and it had to be irenena&irenejeon LOL the two who are most distracting ....
but idk I thought it was a good talk and discussion time (= hahahah
came home and separated nametags for cof... so gross -_- all the buddies nametags have food or slime stuff on it especially kathys =_= like spaghetti or kimchi or jjajangmyun sauce ... and my mom saw and ran and got me hand sanitizer HAHAHa she's messed up....
later watched the oscars with the fam & ate chipotle with the coupon thingy ohehehhe

I been having bad dreams lately kinda T_T June and crystal both teamed up on me and made me cry LOLOL and then the dream continued today during my nap and they were like talking bad about me and keeping secrets from me LOL so sad ... made me sad...

I can't wait for nikoooo ^__^
I'm gonna sleep at 11 today woohooo gnight :)

pisssed off ..

-_- my dad tells me right now that he can't take me to get my license when for the past weeks he said he would =_= so now I have to wait like two more weeks wth. ughamsnakownxbj :( I just wabnt get it over with wHY DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING TO ME?? -___-

today was such a boring day. why are people so boring and dull.
got 100% on my English test though!! and math test wasn't that bad but I'm not gonna jinx myself.. *knock on wood*

afterschool;; harvard square again. Sharon ditched me again too. =_= never again will I ask you to come eat with me. hahah jk maybe. irene came for Picasso so I met up with her after eating mcdonalds by myself again. stayed and heard her play piano magically :') so beautiful omg.. HAHA. her teacher kept talking to me about sat and stuff for jungsoo HAHa wth ahahaha
back to class at 6-8 T_T

studying is so tiring.. esp when yoou have no friends LOLOl :'(
finallyyy tomorrow no tutor. go bowling tomorrow for operation smile!! :) becus you have a great big smile :D LOLOL lame..



heehee. hi eunice.

T_T

ahhh... tutoring and studying from 330-1030 :'(
330-530: math + hw
530-600: had to eat dinner by myself ): Sharon ditched me ugh... I had no money and she said shed spot me and right when I come out from tutor to go eat, I see her leaving and I'm all wth cus yeah :( so she just left and so I had $4 so I ate fries by myself. so sad huh... sigh. all the people at harvard square are soo weird =_= nobody to socialize with... gotta get used to eating alone everyday LOL hahaha T_T
600-800: act tutor
800-840: math
840-1030: pamelas house with sharon joe & sarah for more math

sigh. no life..
but at least i'm doing stuff.. I gues it's good that I'm a loner LOLOL more studying but I got Sarah at least ;)
got A LOT done today. time to ace dat math test!!

im so dead tired. not gonna go on tumblr or fb ... time to knock out . zzzz ..

unusually good day

was very happy for no reason .. everybody just put a big smile on my face ^__^ it felt like I didn't see everyone for so long too so yeeah .. missed everyone LOL I miss people so easily heh.
I was like twenty min late to school cus my grandma drives 5 mph no joke omgahh..
I got a 95 on my spanish test oh yesss <3
afterschool I CAME HOME LOL June =_= I always go home ....
I have tutor everyday from 330-8 oh yay. T_T @ harvard square where nobody goes except me and sarahpang LOL . I guess it's better cus I couldn't concentrate at lees.
nooo just thinking about doing work for that long everyday makes me depressed hahahaha :P
went to rite aid after tutor and got cold sore medicine :'( ugh nooo why do I have to get it again ? beware guys I will kiss all of you unexpectedly and you'll get it too !!! we can be twins <3

dreeamz

last night i had a scary weird dream ..
i was like all shriveled up and i needed water and my skin was all wrinkly o__o
and then when i woke up i remembered that i was like dehydrated too at retreat kinda
like my hands were all purple and blue and my fingers all pruney LOL
yeap.. random but yeha heheh

k off to tutorrr soon :'(

Winter Retreat 2011

Theme: servanthood
This retreat was seriously the most memorable for me... intense stuff mang.
Mmm I'll just bullet point.
- took us five hours to get up to the mountains.. T_T deadly hours of farts and smelliness asdfghjkl
- snowed on friday & saturday! the snow was like pure and gentle and light LOL and it was so pretty like winter wonderland yenno? but it was soo cold... 13 degrees one night
- I knocked out so fast everyday=_= barely got to talk and play games til late cus I was so tired & past my bedtime so yah
- the food was good !! I think we all lost weight cus there was like no junk food to eat during free time and stuff LOL and no ramen or anything :'(
- going ddong was main..LOLOL stunk up the whole room.. everyones poo was like rat droppings no joke T_T high elevation always does that + everyone gets gassy HAHA
- I think I really learned a lot.. my mind set was good cus I went up reminding myself not to fool around during service and stuff. so I really know everything pastor tim told us :)
- the praise team...<33 so. good..... everybodys like in love with them but BACK OFF GOSH !! heh but seriously they're all so good lookin and o0o0o :)
- omg and the lead singer knew me cus my cousins in his band and yeah :') thank you cousin <3
- the drummer LOOOLOkJsbeiwhwkal so good... embarrassing though when they all chanted my name to go up and play T_T gawwd so much pressure..y u do dat? I wouldve went up if only they asked but everybody?? sigh no thnx LOL
- oh and when we sat with them and played cards with them <33 laughed a lot and we rreally connected HAHAHA jk =_= but yeah he was supposed to do a dare ):
- k enough about them.. oh but he's 19 HAHA k jkjkjkjk....THE SNOW. omg snowball fights and tackles T_T outta nowhere like all the middle schoolers threw snowballs in my shirt and my face and hair and everywhere .... I was white all over..
- and another time, Irenena told me to get teacher keziah with her . so she threw it first and when I threw it she turned around and it hit her face LOLOL so I was like O ShoOt and fast walked away cus we'll fall if we run.. butshe started sprinting to me and tackled me into snow and my whole body was buried.. then outta nowhere teacher edith comes and puts my face in the snow and makes me eat it LOOOL!!
- German torture with poor little bby irenena and jennycho HAHA
- omg the balloon with Oreos hAHA =_=
- skits ... fail. BUT we got 4th place.. HAHA they shouldve just said from 4th argh.
- k now for the best part of retreat .. the last day. we were reading the part where Jesus cleans his disciples feet. so after , the teachers set up bins with water for us to wash each others feet too.. sounds funny right? but nobody took it as a joke.. washing someone feet..Haha didn't know it could be so emotional T_T everyone was just crying and praying for each other... even people I barely talk to came up to me and just prayed. & even little sixth graders came up to me and started crying :'( I love how we even had like praise team prayer together and it was so touching and yeah. tear* even prayed with my sister which I never do. I really like felt the Holy Spirit in the room.. I was shaking and we just couldn't stop crying. After that we had praise again and everyone was so happy with tears of joy :) felt good to just let everything out with prayer and after I felt so happy and light :) definitely one of the most emotional & spiritual & best night of my lifee. we all know when somethings super emotional when you see darky crying after a good prayer :')
- the girls just talked at night about like cof HAHA but me and ashley knocked out so early UGH .. but wtvs.
- snack shop LOLOl h8 it.
- ate ice snow water.. yumyum
- everyone knocked out on the way back & then my mom took me to eat the best kimchijjigae ever <3
- the accident with the other church gave me the chills.. what if that was our bus T_T ahh . how scary.. :(
- seniors last retreat. they were in a different group so we barely go to playT_T but I hope they all had a memorable last retreat :) I will surely miss them all next year -sigh- can't believe I'll be a senior..
- I feel like I got closer to everybody tooo<3 from little middle schoolers to ma gurlz. brothers&sisters in Christ 4 evr <3

heckyea

it is that time of the year againn.. RETREAT! all packed up and ready to go. :) I realllyy think it's gonna be good this year.. I have like a good feeling ... <3
today was a good day! many laugh attacks. hahahah.
came to school during brunch:) Spanish test was failLOL so hard.... =_= history was EZ.
omg lunch time haha . T_T NO I did not vomit or anything . NO there was no poo in my food. LOL.
so darkys messed up and never pays me back..so I couldn't buy lunch :( he kept asking everyone for money so in the end I said it's okay. so Jason had teriyaki and he didn't eat it all LOLOL and he went to play hacky sacky so I ate his food and then I saw like a little short hair and Chris and darky were like "EWW PUBE IN YOUR FOOD" I was grossed out so I spit my food out.. and then they go "EW EW EWWW" and then I hear like "EW" voices coming from different parts of the school .... -sigh- embarrassing x100

afterschool... stayed at school til late cus SOMEONE...LOLjk (: stayed with achoi and cyang and ate ate ate !! came home at 4 and knocked out in my snuggiee.

omg I think my sister has a thing with someone and he's so cute <333 we were oovooing with him HAHA . aw :')

chem lab is taking so long ugh .. and I wanted to upload new songs into my touch but it's so late :( YES rally schedule tomorrow. gonna be a chill dayy! then retreat at 4 and it'll be snowing up there :) so excitedd!

LAJSDKLAJKSD

Just let out your true feelings & thoughts. :)

I AM HERE !!

funday

1. chem I hate chem ..her lectures are way too long and boring =_= one hour and thirty minutes of torture .
2. aw man why do I have to do duet with him LOL he sux... now the beat is all off and alfbalsn bugs me . sorry band geek 4evr 8) .
3. yay for subs!! this girl in my class was like sharing her subway LOl and then she took out soda in a water bottle and opened it and it popped everywhere .. the cap went all the way across the room haha and the sub was chill and just laughed . so her and another girl went to the restroom to get tissues and guess what?! mrs martyr was right there at a Spanish meeting HAHA . epic fail. she came out and yelled at them ....
4. jeapordy..david-_- so competitive over a game for just our test. =_= well yeah. test tomorrow. hoorah.
5. gosh she's so anal now ): made me switch test forms cus I had the wrong one BUT ITS NOT MY FAULT THEY PASSED IT BACK WEIRD. made me do the odds of the page but whtever. Ima rebel sooo I just did evens mwahah LOL.
6. tests HAHAHA pretty funny ... lowest grade: 3/25 . :o

Afterschool;;
Irene's with Ashley . did encouragement bags for retreat! & fb stalked all the praise team LOL ashley left so early and Irene left me alone in her house with her scary parents for an hour cus flute -_- I was treated like the hated stepsister LOLOL Isaac like opened irene's door and threw a pizza box inside and left ..and I'm savage so I ran and ate it like I was homeless LOLOl. her mom kept calling mee agh so frightening . meanwhilee I had some fun in her room ;) mahahah. she finally came home and like raped me outta no where wth :( punched kicked threw pillows and tried to undress me omg ?! raper alert . molester ....... then she got all mean :( LOOL HAHAHA omg so Irene was laughing like a hyena and then her mom yelled at her to be quiet cus her laugh is like annoying I guess HAHAHAhA. got some abs today :)decorated the bags and then went homee . (:

good day goood laughs
sorry if I pissed you off LOLOl <333

To: the people who care

Might not seem like it but you guys are on the top of my list. :')

I love you all. GOODNIGHT. <3

bet on it

LOL so Jason and darky are making a bet:
Jason- get a six pack in a month
darky- lose twenty pounds in a month
pwahaha this shall be interesting (: and now everyones interested and placing their bets on Jason or darky HAHA & the girls are trying to do lose ten in a month but we all know that's kimpossible~~

lunch was fun todaay! lots of laughs. Spanish test , moved to Thursday cus of the broken copy machine YESSs. did okay on the english quizz. great gatsby is kinda fun. :P math test..idk LOL I always never know cus I get answers for it but the teachers are so smart and tricky =_=

came home and my sister like knocked out HAHA. & she's still sleeepingLOL. did hw and whatever and fell asleep at 6-11. <3 yay tomorrow; making encouragement bags LOL gonna see ____ play the ____ finally HEHAHAHA . :)

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why am I so depressed ... adhkshsal I was perfectly fine something is wrong with me. I have so many things inside me that I need to let out but why is it so hard -_- came home from cof today and went up to my room and started crying for no apparent reason . I realized that I haven't had a real good talk with anyone for the longest time. and it's becoming really hard for me to open up to people cus I'm jst not used to it anymore. I remember when my old sunday school teacher took me out and we had the best talk ever...she completely understood me and was seriously like psychic. she said that she feels like I have a plate full of tears ready to let out and it's good to just cry it out even if you don't want to.. and at that moment I just like started bawling for like thirty minutes and she was just there comforting me.. and i think that same thing is happening again. I hate putting up a fake smile every single day just so people won't come up to me and ask me what's wrong and I'll just start tearing T_T & the sad thing is that I feel like I don't have anyone to tell stuff to these days. I know that there's people who will listen and be there but it's so hard to even tell them anything becus it doesn't seem to do anything to make me feel any better.. so I jst keep it in and not tell anyone. nobody just understands..

so for the upcoming retreat. I really have to prepare for it and pray that things will go well. and that I'll have the chance to let things out and have that close relationship with God again. when I felt like I was at my high peak of my Christian life I felt really worry free and I remember I prayed every single day whereever and whenever.. in the shower, during passing period, at night, etc. I'd just talk and pray. gaaah I hope I don't just get that retreat high.. akfhlajsls

sigh why are things so hard these days?

i. am. pregnant....

omg i ate so much today and its only 4 LOL. kimchijjigae at church <3 and then sushi q for the first time with church girlz + julian & justin. ate soo much i had to unbutton. LOL eunice took me home but we stopped at dbhs to go to her locker. and when i went up the stairs i was so tired HAHAHA.

today @ church was goood. we had like an all girl thing where we talk about our theme & stuff for our retreat on friday. & like the teachers opened up to us and told us so many stuff :o and people were crying and yeah....
i am so excited for retreat!! i have a feeling its gonna be like intense and hardcore LOL cus theyre "changing it up" and stuff.... :O :D :D

askdjasdlkj i really hope retreat impacts me a lot ... and if i go to niko retreat then there toooo :)

I HAVE FOOD COMA BYE

on ze phone with my buddy

argh so frustrating .. Kathy just talk to meee ): stop saying "idontknow" LOL. whenever I talk to her she doesn't respond and when i'm silent and not speak she says "UHHUH YEAH OK YEAh I'm fine." she's playing fun factory play doh while watching sesame street hehahah..
anywayss today was a tiring day even though I did nothing. woke up at 8 for act practice test til 1. came home and knocked out til 430.. and then watched a movie online by myself ): cus I was home alone the whole day hahah.
oh and today's my moms birthday..I thought I couldn't go out cus we'd do something so I didn't bother to ask but her friends stole her away from us LOOl psh. so didn't get to go to graces..I hope all of y'all dont die HAHA jk be safe girlz. my dad brought home mikes cajun :') and we ate like savages. I think that's like my top ten fave food now :D my mom came home and she was sad we didn't write her a card but it was actually hidden in her laptop and then when she opened it it was there and she got happy hehe.
& now I am here doing homework booo. I'm so full T_T LOL useless post kk

Sucks..

how one person can ruin your whole day... I hate when people go so overboard with their jokes. like seriously it's not funny -_- & what makes it worse is that people actually laugh and encourage them when they do it, which makes them do it more & more. and I HATE how even my close friends laugh at the joke. and when I get pissed they think I'm overreacting and be all wth to me. everytime someone does that to my friend I don't laugh =_= I always back them up cus I would hate it if someone would do that to me..
"how would you feel if that happened to me? treat others as you would want to be treated." LOL idk why but I always keep that quote going on in my daily basis. the "golden rule." I know I don't always follow it cus that's pretty hard but i try.. cus it sucks to be treated with no respect.
well, yeeah LOL another rant. I got over it quickly though cus I'm pretty used to it so -_- other than thatt, another good day!

if I wanted to tell you something, I would..

why are people so nosy!! stop constantly asking me over and over about a problem I have.. dang if I wanted to talk to you about it then I would. I hate how people always ask me just to find out info about me or they're just curious and they wanna know. I could tell when people actually care and when people are just asking. -_- well I guess when people ask "what's wrong" I don't really mind cus they noticed I looked down.. but when people ask that and I say "nothing" and they keep asking and asking -_- omg shush please. & then after they get all pissed that I don't tell them about my problem. maybe I don't wanna tell you or talk about it!!! & everything just gets worse when they get pissed off at me and glare..really now. if you saw that I was sad looking then why would you make it worse by giving me dirty looks? & then they say "wow you never tell me anything-_-" and walk away. wow GzgYSjIwhsiajwb die.

LOL this didn't happen to me today but just thought about it and yeah. end rant. (:

zzzz

- I'm so tired..gonna sleep early (:
- omg when I read your tumblr post I got so -_- IM not the one posting stuff about you!! honestly I posted only like 3 -_- but I had a reason to..yours are all random and not relevant. & don't think my tumblr posts and reblogs are about you cus none of them were...
- today was happy day #2 :) everybody was in a laughing mood and just yeah :)
- omg but everytime I have happy days, after like the 4th something super bad happens LOL
- omg nOOOOO all the justo tickets are sold out ?!?! ugh I am pissed :'(
- k too lazy to write what I'm feelin. time to knock out. baai!

feb10

todayy symphonic band got to leave after 3rd for band festival! good laughs/talks even though it was only for a whilee. jasonyang and his friend LOL little eavesdropping sneakies. daniel fell asleep and he looked like a little ogre HAHA with an underbite LOL! got to the place and the schools basically like only for performing arts highschoolers and you have to audition to get in. that kinda coool heh I wouldn't mind going to a school like it's camp rock :D the whole day we walked in the wind and cold carrying our heavy instruments =_=. ate bomb hotdogs but it was $6... performed and SUCKED except for the orchestra part. our school played for like an hour straight hahah & in the end we got $UPERIOR woot! on the bus back we all knocked out hehe. my dad pickednme up an hour late T_T so I stayed outside and now I'm sneezing .. nooo. yeaap what a boring sounding day but actually i looved it :)

random thoughts

- afterschool went to VIP. saw danny and he complimented me HAHA secret texts. went to db library todayy! ate carls jr with joe and david & got the worst stomach ache =_= regret.. played with jennay and vincent and yeahyeahyeah
- omg my whole house I kinda remodeled ^__^ it's so cool and I'm excited to come home and see my "new" house HAHA. all the floors are wood except mine and my brothers. and so everything looks so fresh and clean ~
- sigh I think I get jealous too easily...jealous over like more personal stuff.. not like if they have a cool car or new clothes but yeah.. my jealousy can get to me sometimes -___- I get pretty sad LOL T_T
- when I meet new people..I always wonder in my head "would they be a good potential best friend" hahah kinda weird but I alwaysalways think like that..I seek da future~.~ haha or like if there's a decent guy I wonder "would they be a good potential husband" HAHA. I should just go with the floow and live life. but for new friendships or something I always wonder that.. and when we start getting close I get excited and happy LOL so exciting having a new friend that can maybe hopefully one day be a goood close friend :).
- k so I didn't go on fb, tumblr, and this for ONE day and it took an hour to go through everything with no breaks LOL! augh piss me off..but yay I don't have any homework today hahah except read (:
- tomorrows band festival!! I hope we do wellLOL. gonna skip school yayy
- I am master of dreaming no joke..like seriously every single time I think of what I wanna dream of..it comes true 90% of the time. but it only works if I sleep early..sleeping at 1230 or later doesn't workk so I try sleeping early now (=
- I hate how it's so windy and cold..but jk I like cold :D
- OMGOMGOMG so I found out theres gonna be a snow storm while we're at retreat <333 oh yes yes yess !! I wanna get locked in and stuff HAHA. (: I'm so excited for retreat. I hate how it's so late for winter retreat but woot I'm glad it's soon ^__^
- seniors..last retreat...sigh. I will miss them all. at the retreat speaking sesh I think I'll cry T_T.
- dangg long post . if you read it all LOL congrats.

2.7.11

1. chem test!! intense LOLOL
2. omg. I love men piano players.. I was staring at the guy playing and he's so pro (: my contacts fell off cus I stared too long LOL he has that 'omg cool' and big Adams apple and old fashioned glasses LOL and tall <3
3. I dislike Spanish. she didn't pass out our dedications back and if we didn't get ours by today then it's due a day later. and then it was thirty seconds til the bell rings and she called mine =__= boo you.. bidi bidi bom bom ~~
4. jae I h8 u. played german torture and I died ..owwieeeee I will get you back !!
lunch is lunch. so dang boring.
5. I dislike mrs crane to the max ..
6. omg so I didn't do my math hw and like I totally forgot to copy LOL so I wasdoing it during 5th and I wrote the question and not the figure..and all the questions were like "using the accompanying figure..blahblahblah" so I couldn't do it so I was just gonna finish during class and secretly use my pencil BUT everyone all around me were gone..wth ): for freshman remix so she could easily catch me... and later she told us she's nt gonna collect it <3 I was so happy LOL God loves me hahahah
Afterschool;; COF ...was so not in the mood but was better than expected! got in trouble with jenny like fifty times by different people LOL -_-magical cup oh em geee, Kathy about to slap me silly, jenga, etc etc. lots of laughsss <3
overall had a veryberry good day (=
K I am so tired I'm falling asleep while writing this...yawn*
gooodnight fellow bloggers !!

omg

ew ew ew ew my sister farted on MY pjs cus she thought the pants were hers but it's mine ....AUGH Dangit. it was like a soggy wet fart too-_- ...LOL time to bangoo on her pillows ohoho jk

today was good church day! except everyone kept calling me poodle LOL Omg ugh ...all irene na/jeon devils.
ireeene came over and wouldn't let me sleep...sang like monkeys. then went to puente and met up with claudia!! ate spam masubis and candy and more.. watched no strings attached :') and then the roommate. laughed a lot during the movies LOL I think everyone was annoyed.. o well.
came to mi casaa and ate ramen and microwave pizza and hot cheetos and stuffs. watched tv..listning to Irene criticize all the actors and claudia laughing like a hyena HAHA.

now I am in bed..so tired today T_T

so sleepy..

didn't take my daily nap today ): so I'm extra tired and I can barely open my eyes hahah
my Spanish thing took like one hour -_- gaaahhh.. and now studying for Spanish test ..
woww without naps I'm so dead and crnky and tired T_T

How sad...

-sigh- I know you know we're drifting but you don't do anything to bring it back together ):
Why am I always the one trying to fix things up...Naah I'm so sick of it T_T..
If you wanna talk to me you would! So whatevs..
So sad. Makes me think about how important our friendship was to you...

long time no post

i barely write in this now so i'm gonna try to write more..
well today was a boring ol day. 3 tests.... i think i did whatever .. -_- not that good though haha. seriously the whole day i was so busy and all my classes we did something the whole stankin period. i hate days like these.. T_T
WHY WAS TODAY EXTRA COLD .... it was sunny in the morning and when i got out of the car it was like BAM blizzard so cold ...... and then i had to walk all the way up the hill with boogers streaming down and tears coming out LOOOOL jk .....maybe.
i wanna do a 365 thing like rose !! i always write about my day anyways on tumblr or here... but i can never use the computer -_- im always on itouch 24/7. except now cus my parents arent home yeeee.
omg yesterday i made my family food :D like sandwiches and pancakes HAHA. and today i brought turkey sandwich and tuna ... i felt so fat but wtv cus it was delicious.
and now i am so drained out and tired .... i feel a good nap coming its way :)