busy busy bee

• finish college apps by Friday!!
• work shift tomorrow and not wednesday or saturday; yez.
• thanksgiving dinner @ aunts
• meet up with the friendss
• turkey bowl!! watch darky get tackled and meet up with old niko mate :')
• black friday shopping lezgo
• sunday workin
• etcetcetc

gonna be so busy during Christmas season too.. planning to buy good gifts for my fam this year :) don't mind using a lot of my work $$ for them.
cabin with the girls hopefully :) three time tradition yee
work on Christmas.. sigh._.
plan a birthday party..? idk
go up to ucsb with cousinn!
yayayay essited:)

ugh

i h8 marching band......-_-
after every football im so sore and drained out and tired til like the next day and i just dont wanna do anything. we have to march for like an hour and now drumline has to stand up the whole time during the game for like 4 hours, playing every single time the football team stops playing so like every 3 minutes x100 T__T

left a little early yesterday... BUT BUUTTTTTT had a great time after school on friday <333
went to yes plaza with the gurls & boys and ate good food! went to shooters and tried to get that iphone from the machine HAHA l0serz.. jk
then the girls left cept me and crys and went to daniels pool!! met up with others and had a WATER BALLOON FIGHT! LOL
so pissed cus i had to go to school by 430-_- and we started playing like at 4........ :(
daniel lee threw the water balloon straight at my face once and right on my right butt cheek...... hurt so much omg LOLLLL then jae threw it at my eye T_T
HAHAHAHAHAH DARKY MOMENT LOLAHAAHHAHAHA !!!! funniest moment ever in eternity.
then june.kim........10 minutes before i had to go school... PUSHES ME INTO THE POOL WITH MY CLOTHES ON LOL T________T plus i was on my period ... LOLOL so my pad didnt even stick onto my wet underwear-_-
went to school and my bra and undies were soaked and nasty .. played and left and then went to school drenched with sweat LOL came right when the sermon ended..

then this morning went to act testing at valley christian highschool in whittier! guess it wasnt as bad as the last one but it was still hard....the proctor loved me :') everytime i wasnt done with my test, even if the time was up, she wouldnt say anything and right when i put my pencil down shed tell us to stop working :D <3
my mom was so nice today... and got me an iphone!! yayy finally LOL i feel bad about my last post cus i feel like a hypocrite now... but my work money will go to my family and this phone and some para mi :)

came home and ended up not going to the vbs teachers dinner.. ._.
karma happened and now my new iphone doesnt work properly... i feel so sad without my phone working T_T

wanna go change my phone right nAO !!!!

why is it that every single holiday or birthday we always get into huge arguments? not just fighting where we're yelling but to the point where we'll all leave the house and just not come home til the next day.
i understand that my dads not doing well and i get that we're financially unstable. but you dont have to go cuss at our faces and take the car and leave. i'm the one trying to find jobs and everything and when i actually find one you get all pissed off and tell me that i need to get good grades when im trying to help the family. i don't care if im going to be tired or if we have to fire ajuma. having an ajuma is such a waste and its just spoiling me and my sister more and more. a thousand a month for her to just cook and clean and pick us up is not worth it. its not like we're going to have a maid with us everywhere we go.
why can't we just clean and do laundry and cook.. i've been doing it for me and lauren recently and all we need to do is try harder if ajumas gone. just face the fact that i'm grown up now and i can't always rely on an ajuma or my friends for rides every where i go.
i'll work, do chores, and pick up my sister, and now i'll actually have rides to wherever i need to go. whats the big problem? -_-

yay now youre back home.. time for more yelling.
want to leave so bad.

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and why is it that you guys let my brother get a new bmw when he was junior and let him do whatever? you guys got him new phones whenever he wanted it and gave him what he wanted whenever. he never even got a job and i'm really trying hard to help you guys. i'm sorry i'm not smart like him and got straight a's every single year and goes to uc berkeley. okay, i'm not a super genius that doesn't even have to try to get good grades.
i'm the one taking my time to get a job even when i have cof, tues/wed 3hr long band practices, and fri praise/football games. i'm the one who doesn't ask for a new phone all the time even though my phones the worst phone in the whole world and turns off every thirty minutes and that it's overdue for like 7 months. i'm the one who just wants to drive so we won't need an ajuma, so i can get to wherever i need to cus you guys all complain, so i can pick up my sister, etc. i'm the one who doesn't care if we can't eat out or if i can't get the money to eat out with my friends. don't you see.. i'm really trying to help and all i get is nothing.

so.....

after fnbs, went to eat dennys with pyun, darky, danny, irenena, hannah....
then got so depressed T__T
all talking about niko and their inside jokes and stuff .....
irene says that alumni's waay better than participant... so hopefully i get to go next time!

sigh hate this feeling

- so pissed & sad... wishing i was at niko right now....
- one reason why i couldn't go was cus i didn't finish my stinkin summer work and i probably wont even finish it til saturday SO WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYY .
- k should start on 'in cold blood' ...idc if my essays are bad IDC i h8 u summer work.
- last week of summer and im stuck at home... so weird how my parents are getting more strict but i guesss its getting me more mature? (:
- hoping i can go out on saturday... please no family dinner...
- can't wait to see everyone tomorrrrow (:
- been eating more and more lately ...right before school? noo... i used to not crave anything or have no appetite and now all i wanna do is eat...
- "y u so obsessed with me?" LOLOLOL
- everytime i see you... i feel so dirty.... x___x sorry.

kinda sorta

really reaally miss you

hahahhah

what was i thinking ....

oh welllllll

T___T

massive stomach aches kickin' in again

depression mode

omg so many depressing things lately .. T__T

i just wanna say it all here but i cant ..
mannnnn y dey gotta b lik dat ....

klajjdljajska i hope things work out :|
just gotta pray about it -sigh-

wazzup

hi eunice,

how you doin ? i know you are reading this ...
you cant wait for this..
youve been waiting for this moment :')
such a great moment this is indeed .......

k luv yew bye :D HAaha

omgaaaad

been having fun fun lately now that all the church stuff are over !!
keep it coming keep it comingg :)

gotta do some studying soon ... and summer work .... nooooo

sigh

things will be quite different when you leave .....


couple days left ... gotta make it the best .

a night to remember

"what happens at loxley, stays at loxley..."
LOL NEVER. FORGET... crazy night; it feels like a dream...

thank God though seriously ..... asdfghjkl;

friends friends friends

how do people do it ?!
hard having different groups of friends ..
hang out with one, more distance with the other :|

don't wanna have that..

cmon michelle step it upppp!

aw...

no more i guess ....

good bye :'( miss you .

:)

To the ones who care
<3333333333333

K I GOT IT

But the fruit of the spirit it love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Against such things there is no law.
Galations 5: 22-23

YEEEEEEEE
wait i think its right LOL

holyjkLKJDAIWJKLD

JUST .... UNDERSTANDKJAWORAJLK -_-
omg i want to scream so loud and throw something

what to do ...

why is everything going downhill for me these days :|
i don't know what to do ... i try my best but it just doesnt work out .
i really realllyy am trying hard in everything thats going on and im trying my best to actually do whats best for everyone ...
sometimes people need to just sacrifice and give in and stop being so selfish ..
and to top it off, people dont even know whats going on in my life yet they treat me like i have the best life ever with no problems ..
nobody even knowsssss so just please back off .
and yah, i see every single small little thing ... dont think i cant see it ughajwidj confused with it

trying my best to remind myself that everything will work out .......
just wanna know when . T_T
God will answer my prayers!!

anyways,
really excited for missions and being small group/debrief leader :)
first missions yay !!
then retreat the day after ......
then niko a couple of weeks later
busy busy month
excited !! :)

k ill test if i memorized the bible verse ......
UHH ....
something .. fruit of the spirit is peace patience love faithfulness selfcontrol . . .. . . .. HAHAHha k fail LOLOL

i don't even care

omgawwwwd i dont understand :'(
i donut know what to do

KLJAIFKSD try not to care
-sigh-

one more day

and they graduate ...
boo hoo fricky fricky hoo
i know i'm supposed to be happy and all but omgaaah ... T_T -tear-

its not even the end or anything
ima see them all at church and whatever!
but kljadj each day passes by and it gets closer and closer to them going off to college
and then i never see them again ..
we'll always say that we'll play when they come back but it never seems to happen like that

"The scariest thing about distance is that you don't know whether they'll miss you or forget you."

wth...

misunderstandings turn into such drama .. LOL
why does everybody spread every single little thing
how do you know if its even true
uggggh spreads like wildfire .. lol

just .. shush & leave me alone . T_T

blegh

don't feel good at all

bad to good

started off the monday so annoyed by everything and everyone ...
wanted to shoot everybody and cry LOL
lunch time brought up da mood though :)
sarahpang&i ... official food table beggars hAHA
she put ketchup on my white vneck omg -_- sigh
the day had it's ups and downs
sorrry if I was all pissy mood to you or I looked pissed... haha

cof graduation was fun !
perfect attendance award yeee
except they spelled my name "michell park" -___- my gash .
jumpers are so fun ... I should get it for my next birthday again LOL
yay that'll be the 4th time :D
hahaha omg jenny LOLolzozlOLOL shoot HAHA
... we died LOL

came homee and yeah
home is very cozy
k baaai :)

rude

i dislike rude and immature and heartless people very very much .

slept from 4-9 today .. did my homework and did a bullying survey cause i felt like it .
watched american idol and omg :( nooo why did lauren have to stay?! she sucks ..

so saturdays supposedly the "end of the world" LOL what if it really is .....
if it is, ima go to school and burn it down. then go eat all the food in the world.

tomorrow's 30 hour famine .. no eating 4 meee aklsjdjasd
k time to study.. bai

PROM

in detail. fyi this post might be long LOL

k so started off the day going to the hair salon place at around 1030am
lee ka ja's really good at cutting my hair but styling hair and doing makeup? heck no.
the makeup lady was so -___- omg .. she made me look like a clown. like seriously im not going to a circus. then they messed up on my hair and it was already 12pm and thats when i had to meet up at elaines house ..
so just told them to stop and looked at myself in the mirror and sobbed.
erased all the makeup in the car and my mom re-did it like 5 minutes before arriving -whew-
got to elaines around 1240 (oopsies)
the mothers (crystals, elaines, karans, and mine) took pictures HAHAHA and all you could hear was "creestal it doesnt work" "MICHELLE SMILE !! LOOK AT THIS CAMERA GUYS!!" "karronna..stand straight" LOOLOLLAWJDOIKAL <3 oh mothers.
finallyy the party bus came and when we saw what it looked like .. "....w...t....h...." mental institute lookin party bus HAHA how embarrassing
"GUYS LETS JUST WALK A MILE BEFORE ENTERING THE AQUARIUM SO NO ONE SEES US"
played the put-hand-on-strip-pole game LOl so funny
arrived to imagex an hour late .. took the pictures. jason taking pictures .. so funny LOL shaking his head 24/7
took gajillion pictures next to the fountain
finally left and off to dinner at the lighthouse
took some more gajillion pictures near the ocean
ate some foodz... almost ripped my dress LOLOL jk but sigh couldnt eat much cause T_T yeah
back to the bus ! took us to the aquarium (:
me & vincent, jae & elaine went to the fishies first. so pretty <3
LOLOL THE OTTER .... there was this otter who was like giving us a show .. so cute
it kept tapping the glass and swimming next to us and stuff
then it started to lick its area ... and then it pooped like red salmon or something omg T___T
ate a little piece of it then swam off .... we were so shocked hAHHAHAHAHA
one second we're all "Awwwomg its so cute"
then it poops
"..........o_o"
then off to dance ! hahha so cuute everybody ^_^ LOL darky & sharon freaking/slow dancing <333 gaah too cute
joe you messed up LOL GLC GLC GLC -_- whew
got so many bruises on my feet -_- everybody stepped on me -sigh-
left the dance then back to the bus where everyone knocked out
back to elaines then off to hotel
fun nightt but bad stomach ache :|
didnt really feel like sleeping over the hotel ... so decided to sleep @ janes to have a ride to church
chris dropped me off at 4amish
jane jenny eunice didnt come yet .. so waited outside for about 45 min .. THNX GUYS, THNX hehe jk
it was so scary & cold ... everytime i heard a car, i ran behind janes car to hide
finallly, chrislim jst picked me up and took me to where they were
slept there til 8am .. couldnt sleeep T_T 2 hour nap woot .
back to janes and washed up and whatnot
went to church.. got some mcdonalds breakfast for bible study time
tried so hard not to fall asleep during service. mission accomplished. yay.
LOL @ JANE
pyun "guys, dont sleep yuor way through life..." HAHA hahah
good praise day though ^_^ kinda good to just listen and sing
after church.. played with the little babies at korean school <33
julie came over and i knocked out while she played me guitar heheho
chris, vincent, and jason came over and we left to imagex to get our pictures !
met up with sarahpang
saw our pictures and holy frick we fat and ugly .
sigh oh well T_T
good laughs , good talks
went home around 6pm YEEEAP

good weekend ^___^ yay
time to knock out now .. so tired.

soba

is so delicious <3
ate it 4 din din

watched tangled in the morning <3
it was so good .. kljasldjk dude i love repunzel . she's so nice i love her hair .
k so i am sort of pissed because i found out today i didnt get link crew .. say whaaaa. LOL how could dey do dis to me .....
"if you participate in junior yearr youll get in for sure next year! no need to worry."
-didnt see name on list- ........ WHAT .
sigh oh well .. why did nobody get in o_o all the people who did it this year didnt get in ... and people who didnt do it last year all got in ...
ooh maybe cause i ditched too much LOLL =_=
on the bright side ... i did it during junior year so im heppy :)
but how could they lie to me wow k die you liars .

went to han nam chain afterschool to tailor my dress
omg so sad she told me to go on a diet hAHAHHAHA
i hope she was joking -_-
sharonshin .. yo mama .. made me sad LOL
came home and slept with my sister til 640 <3 good nap.

nooo im getting sick T_T
i hope i dont start my period LOL THATLL SUCK omg

ohh had a good talk with my brother ^_^ fb chat yeee
didnt talk to him for awhilee and caught up with stuff

kay happpy day today ! byeee ~

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!

7am wakin up in the mornin ...
made my mom breakfast!
my famous ramen, sausage, eggs, toast, apples, smoothiee, and of course a bootipul card <3
church 8-1pm
took a nap ^_^ then off to brea with mama !
met up with vincent and his mom and his brother ..
so. funny... LOL
he tried on his vest & tie and yayy we're finally done
went to oh crab for mothers day dinner :) yummmy
happy mothers day! i love my mama to death .
good day with her ^_^
one on one date <3

looong day

brea with mama from 1-4pm !
bought my dress, bag, and vincents tie !! finally
julie calls and tells me to stay at brea cause she'll be alone -__- .. so i wait for her for and hour and thirty minutes T_____T all alone .. -sigh-
finally she came and we ended up walking around til 730 buying nothing ... she didnt even buy me candy wth :'(
saw so many people at brea today ... JENNY KIM !! fate :')
she was buying mongolian grill and i came to her and the mexican guy grilling her food saw me and gave extra noodles ... oO O O jenny you know its true.
& rebecca black was there i heard omgajksdjiw ! LOL
went back to julies! ate dinner, watched moobie, etc

good tiring day :)

K

if you dont care, i dont care

i'm done

5

4
3
... yeap 3 LOL

had my first detention today .. so scary & weird :|
"your nipples are A-cup!!!" ........ erh
stayed at school til forever (sorry karan & june) and went to doctors
then off to pams
"studied" LOL made the best videos ever ... covers oh yeah HAHAHHA
never ever to be seen in anyones eyes .
hyper party with pamela & sharon :')

k im super tired i hate this hot weather
night !

HALMUHNEEEEEE

please just please ...
i eat my apples AND the peel on the apple ..
i eat my beans in my rice ..
i wash my hands after i go pee ..
asjkdlkjaf

went to school at 12 today :) !
cof afterschool T_T_T_T_T
i have to tie my hair every monday now for my safety hAHAHHA
kathy pulled out literally 20 hairs today .. i think im gonna go bald soon
why do you pull out my hair ? why ? and then why do you floss with it ? i dont understand .
then right after she pulls it, i say STOP
and she says "NO KATHY NO!! APPOH OUCH IT HURTS!!" .................
-10 minute later she pulls out another hair-
"STOP KATHY." "NO KATHY NO!! APPOH OUCH IT HURTS!!" .................

went to harvard after :') jk harvard square tutor and YEAAAAAAp
now im eating an apple
u heppy grammy?

lalala

not gonna care anymore ...
not worth it !!!

gah so hard ..
too attached too easily.


anyways. new topic.
this is why I don't like having little things or wtv..
when it's over we don't even talk and hold grudges and just get pissed ...
sigh. oh well.

random

- currently in bed ... reading and itouch
- i think i care too much ...
- get too attached too easily
- I'm sad cus I went to victoriagardens, Montclair, anddd Ontario from 1-8pm & found nothing :( sigh.
- but just bought a dress so I don't feel like a failure buying nothing..
- BUT I don't like it asdfghjkl wedding LOLOl
- confirmation was very good :') ty eberyone who came!!
- going over Jonah at church for the next monthish.... woah
- I wanna have a movie day soon
- no ap chem test for me <3 yeee
- 98% chem final heck yea . makes me happy whenever I think about it LOL!
- i wanna ask my parents if I can skip 1 & 2 period tomorrow... nervous
- nobody talks to me.. 4evralone.
- I don't wanna be in this prom stressin drama !!
- off beat- clarachung!
- mm why does is always happen to me... hate this feeling
- I want to not care -_- ... :/
- we shall see how this goes...
- you make me happy but frustrate me at the same time :o
- I love dreaming... takes me awayy

k I'm so bored I don't wanna study T_T

i h8 u cramps

:'( why does this happen to me .......

i was supposed to go to tutor right after school but decided to go @ 6 cause i felt so aklsdjs T_T ..
took a nap & woke up and couldnt even get up
i hate how i have such bad cramps
i hate taking pills every day
knowing that i need to take them for the rest of my life makes me feel so T_T
& when i forget to take it, i feel so sick & drained
deciding if i should just remove the cyst -_______- noo i hate hospitals.

on the bright side,
ACED MY CHEM FINALS WOOOOOOOH <3333 :D :D :D :D :D heahehAHHAHAEIKRIOLKD
jk i didnt get my grade back but last night while studying, i did ap free response online questions..
and two of them that i did were on the test :') so lucky thank you jejus LOL

tomorrows finally friday ..
done with ap chem finals & not taking ap chem test ... *relief*

hope tomorrow will be a good day !!

POLICE!

WEE WOO WEE WOO ~~

ate kbbq once again .. with joe david danielyi for his birthday (:
k starting tomorrow NO MORE FOOD aslkdjklad.. im sorry vincent ill stop eating ..
today was epic pwnage...
basically...
vincent got a ticket for jaywalking on the street while cars were coming in the intersection --> $300something $_$
and at the same time, david got a ticket for speeding......
so many police today. i saw 4 people on the streets getting tickets. did they like recruit police and send them on a mission today or what.......

im so tired im gonna die
tomorrows already thursday woot! :)

breakthrough

i have nothing to do so i'll just blog about saturday LOL
wellll sharon invited me to her church revival!
the prayer was gooot
its so much easier to connect with God noww & i could feel his presence :)

i noticed that whenever people pray for me ... they always say the same thing
sharons mom prayed for me and later that night she told me that she didnt know why but she started crying when she prayed for me ...
well the people who always pray for me alwaysss say something like "remember that God is always listening and that He is always there when you need Him..."

God works is such miraculous ways~!
he uses others so wisely .. can't explain

well i noticed during niko ..
it was encouragement time & darky was up to encourage me :')
i remember him saying "i found a bible verse for you .. i just feel like you need it. God is telling me to tell you."
& he told me that even though you feel like no ones there for you, God always is...
and kajsdkajsd i was so touched :) God used darky to tell me dis ..
cause before niko i was really struggling & i felt like i could talk to nobody & i just felt really alone ..
so kljaskdlj i was so :') when he told me i started tearing and yeah <3333

thenn at breakthrough, sharons mom prayed for me
she was speaking in tongue but i can hear some words that came out
it was like "You are always there for her please let her know.... prayer always works...."
yeahh :') akjsdkjad and then she told me that she could really feel my heart and God while she was praying <3

God is so goooooooood ...
so kewl how he uses people to communicate and encourage 8)
k just wanted to share! bai bai :)

sssoo coolldd..

today was so cold .. even though i could feel myself about to sweat, i still felt super cold T_T
nobody had like a jacket jacket except jae but it was in his locker for 3 months LOL so i go to crystals locker and yay! i find a jacket :') & i had long jeans in my backpack idk why.. so i changed from shorts too woohoo !
today was so sad para me .. studied for spanish so much with all that 60+ vocab words and everything but she gave us such a hard test... we had to put the vocab words into these random sentences LOL and i didnt know what they meant .. T_T holy frick such a fail. i was so sad ... i was so determined to get an A and i actually studied a lot and i failed miserably :'( .. 4th period i was so emo and -tear tear- T_T
o well, watched a movie in 4th though......THEN.. bum bum bum~ lunch time .
operation smile interview ... LASDJALSJD
it was with eunice, sarahcho, & gloria and im pretty close to all of them which made it way harder cause theyll know if im lying or not in my interview LOL
so i walk in, smiling, and then they start shaking my hand o_o "hi my name is eunice" "hi my name is sarah" "hi im gloria" "please have a seat" ........ uh k
"whats your name? what grade are you in?" ......................... then i answered and i started giggling cause i thought it was funny LOL
and then eunice: "can you be more serious." ....... O_O .... :'(
they were so serious .. i kept smiling cause i just cant resist LOL and akjsdjad yeah ..
they even asked "why do you think you would be a better president than karan and julie?" OMGAIWHAJK -sigh-
forgot to study for english and another epic fail L O L
afterschooll went to eat with sharrong! ate wok and subway.. talked then went to tutor til 9

gaahh today felt so weird .. everything was so annoying and it just wasnt a great day
it was the first day i felt like this since i came back from niko :|
everybody can be so mean & rude -__- honestly .. i dont get why people always think about themselves. ITS NOT ALL ABOUT YOU HONEY goodness gracious.
the smallest things can just trigger sadness T_T
but i didnt get pissed at anyone .. trying not to yell or start anything or yeeah. such a waste of time

it feels weird not having a guy friend to tell everything to
i was so used to telling guys all my stuff but now everyones all distant :\
hopefully we all get closer & become nicer!

other than that, everythings been good lately (=
family life is going welll~ i like coming home without fighting or anything .. we all seem pretty happy & so im happy !
I FEEL HAPPY i want to hug you <3

s t r a n d e d

nobody wants me .... -tear-
k i'll just blog about everything

friday- julies house for bible study. played and ate and talked and yeap. then off to church and had the best singing time w/ karan HAHAHA sweet child o mine <3 when that song comes up ... just LOL the best. had good friday service.. God is so gooddd kjasdkjl he suffered so much for us and T_T so sad watching the video. then my mom texts me saying that her and my sister are going to palm springs until sunday... then my dad tells me hes going to mexico until tuesday ...... what do i do ?!!?!? :( went home, packed my stuff, and slept over sharons house ....

saturday- woke up @ 6am for emp .. so tiring. turns out there was no emp that saturday JKAWKJDSKLD LOL gaaah sharon .. but it was still good! went back to her house and knocked out til 12 :) then off to pams! met up with priscilla and julie and shopped at brea for prom -__- absolutely nothingjashdkjas like wth windsor do you think we're gonna wear big humongous sparkling fairy tale dresses? .. -sigh- THENNNNNN omgaiwjdlksjd stress. so i texted like everybody on my contact list (not really) asking them if i can sleepover tonight HAHA and stuff like that .. decided to go sharons then chris could take me home ! so sharons mom came to the mall and we were super late cause she had to cook or somethiong akjdlk so ran to pams mom to get car keys, then to parking lot to get my clothes, then back, but then we forgot to lock it so ran back and then ran to pamela and then ran to sharons car T_T yes we ran aroound the mall like crazy sweaty people ....... went to church for breakthrough event thingy. ate good food and played games! the service and praise was really gooood tooo ^_^ ahhaha chris took me to julies house and slept over her place ... HAHAH i dont think julie realized but i was hugging her the whole night ... AHHAHAHA i was so cold :'( she had the heater thingy on her side so i tried putting my leg on it but its so far .. =__=

sunday- happy easter! :) woke up @ 730 and off to church ... church starts so early now T_T 10am omgah. finally saw my mama <333 went home and knocked out for 5 hours on her bed <33 so comfy heh heh. did mi tarea and now im finishing testimony .. nerviosa :| haha "he has risen!" "he has risen indeed!" :)

so.cute.

this week is like the cutest most bestest week <33333
i love star testing schedule ... only 30 minutes long every class and like an hour long lunch and like 30 minute long brunch ?! HECK YEAAAA
i feel so bad for mrs martyr :'( klajsdjk ..... i was all happy she was out but her dad passes away T_T ...
watched SALT in history .. so intense
afterschoool;; pams house with sharrong
ate so much foood and knocked out for 2 hours
went to priscillas house and met up with eberybody !!
the candles were so pretty... trail leading to P R O M <33333
agh theyre so cute T__T no joke kajslkdj i melt every time i see them <33
went back to pams and we were so hyper and happy cause theyre so cute HAHAHAHA
talked and laughed and blahblah :)
NEXT UP? you shall see. :) can't wait !!

SUCCEEEEESSSSSSSS

came to school at 1130 :D
another sub in martyr <3 yess yes keep it comin please
afterschoool;; went to kevinhungs house and made posters for darky and jae !
went to lasertag ... so fun and scary LOL omg jae screaming every second and running away HAHAH pee*
darky got me so many times and breanna looked so creepy and i just started cracking up in front of her and fell HAHAHAHAH kawljdaks
and crystal omg LOLLL "UGH OMG WHYY" every single time ..
adriana & daniel were no where to be found coughcough LOL <3
yeap yeaaaap fun day !
kevin asked crystaal ! crystal you better wear the shirt. LOOL be proud of it OKAY. pwahhah
had the biggest laugh attack ... cause i saw a fat dog. it was so funny HAHAHA
THENNNN OFF TO SHARON HONG'S HOUSE !!
such a fail .. went to the wrong house . told sharon to come out but she came out of her house which was 3 houses down ...
LOL omg sharon and juliehong .. deedeedee sisters <3
they kinda saw us but she was jst like "oh i think our neighbors are having a party"
HAHAH so went to sharons house and darky asked her <333
"ICE CREAM TO GO TO PROM WITH YOU!" -gives ice cream & flowers- awwww :')
back to kevins house and nowwwww home work time woopeee
good day but MAFIWJFE im so dead and tired .

yayyy^_^

before school we helped Chris ask Julie to prom! she came so late and got scared when she saw us HAHAHA . and Chris that litto boy choked and forgot to ask if she wants to go with him LOL
thennn star testing sleep star testing sleep star testing sleep
lunch was so funny LOL ily darky :) my itouch automatically changes "sarky" to "darky" HAHAhA. & Jason is an official creeper....
went to chem and had a funny talk with mrs hebert .. Joe told her I'm going to prom with Julianpark and I was like NOOOO he's like my little brother.. then she says "SO WHAT you guys won't have to make out or anything" LOOL... erh......
chill day in Spanish cause the sub :)
afterschoool omg so embarrasssing hahaha but thank you Bincent!! you da besttt~
I'm heppy it was him omg LOLOl yay it's gonna be fun cause all us friends are gonna be together :') finalllyy.
then helped Joe with Vincent and Julie and crystal !
asked Karan woohooo~ "I'd die to go to prom with you" + siren noises + chalk drawing
went to half & half and then went to the top of the world mountain :) !
screamed our lungs out and let everything out HAHA
yeeaapp good day! coming to school super late tomorrow tooo wooot! :)






& June you obsessed.....

the lazy song

yes.. exactly what i am feeling
cst testing is so chill :) ! but i had the WORST headache this morning .. felt like throwing up and everything was so blurry and i was sweating so much .. i think its cus i slept so late and i woke up late and rushed and everything was just aklwdioalkef .
finished the test fast and slept for 30 minutes after every section <3
lunch was fun! yaay i can't wait to see all my friends ask/get asked this week ^__^ woohoo ~
went to band, then history, then math .. did like nothing the whole day yeee
afterschool; cof woopdeedoo. -_-
so saddd me & chris missed prom for audrey .. :( kajdkwd
im gonna sleep EARLY. k bai.

I HUNGEr

church todayy! good laughs good vibes :)
talked about Niko today during bible studyy! I hope everyone goes !
i guess I'm doing confirmation this year... kinda nervouss thoughh T_T haha
came home did my hw and took a nap..
then off to corona for cof -___- took like 45 min to get there.. emmeline and I were in the back while gary and his mom were like fighting the whole time so awkward .. ajdlahskakks
finally got there and played two songs -_- we got to eat but the steak was so bloody ew ew :(
Vincent and I had a goot talk LOOL !! went to jennipurs house and threw a ball thing at her window and we thought it cracked so we ran and LOL almost peed so exciting HAHA
Jenny made us delicious ramen !!
then Vincent left and we jst took bootyful pictures and just talkie and laugh and SWEAT .
another good day :) !

4.16.11

woke up late and skipped act tutor ...
was super duper bored @ home doing nothing -_-
sooo today became pam & michelle date
ate a whole mongolian grill by myself <3 so good ....
hanna was a weird movie .. but it was good ... but really weird ... but like really good ...
just talked and laughed and ate and talked :)
went to operation smile benefit concert ! met up with eberybody ^_^
it was fun ... but so tiring .. 4 hours of random youtube stars just singing for us LOL
yaay good seeing ben clement again though ! ^_^ NO i was not blushing gosh messed up .. but he was so good HAHAAHA <3
eunice got asked to prom .. so cute <333333333
squished into hyejins tiny car .. T_T i sat on da floor of the front seat right under jenny. so scary .. i could just die in an instant .
went to karrrans and slept for like 10 minutes but it felt so long haha
finnalllly home. knock out soon.
goood day ! :)

FRIDAY

finallyyy. this week felt so long but it was a good good week!
today we went to tofu house and cafe haus for sharrongs birthday ! ate some bomb diggity soondooboo and chicken .. then bingsoo and boba and crepe <3 Sharon ate the whole bingsoo herself LOL just cus it was freee pshh ;)
went to tutor after and fell asleep during break for like ten minutes but it felt like an hour
and then my hand started to tingle and it was sleeping and I was going crazy T_T I hate the reading sections ahhh I just wanna scream and sock the tables and run around LOOL idk why but when I take practice tests I feel so claustrophobic like I'm gonna die .. -__-
highlight of my day was when I got a better test score than joe :) LOL jk but yeah it was still fail. stankin hebert.. but she likes me now kinda hehe. let me drink my chocolate milk in class and says bye to me like nicely HAHA
tonight is a goot goot night. I was really hyper and happy .. hyppy LOOOL o i'm funny.
kk yay for tomorrow :) friiiiday!

smile you ugly beast

today was a really good day ^___^
woke up all by myself really early LOL started off with a good mood from the beginning :)
the whole dayy i tried hard not to get pissed at someone .. its hard but LOL passed!!
so many people asked me about niko ... and now sO many people wanna go .... pwahah im glad i went before them or else the whole niko group would be people i know
kennot wait for alumni !!
my summer schedule is going to be packed ...
august- retreat, then right after is missions, then right after is niko :o
anywayssssss
went to cof today ...
kathy is so disgusting :( kajsdjaw ..
the worst thing happened to me today T_T_T her boogers in my hair omg KJDAIWJ EW -_-
thank you jenny and emmeline for taking it out though .. T_T LOL ugh ew .
came home and did the laundry cause i felt nice hehe
yeapyeapyeap goood day ! :)

niko

was definitely a great experience... just everything that happened. it was tough yeah but it was all worth it. I wish it was longer ahhh...
going into niko I guess I had a hard time opening up to people about my life and my problems and I really wanted to just start fresh in my spiritual life. anddd God really answered my prayers:) the feeling of that is really ... amazing I can't explain it . I miss everybody I met at niko too.. we should all have like once a week webcam sesh<3 hehe met some people that I will never forget! we only knew each other for five days but I feel like we're all super close as brothers&sisters in Christ^_^ and I love how now I have people who I can go to to talk about my problems and what's going on in my walk with God.. it's good to know that I have people to keep me accountable who I see everyday:) Julie Jenny Karan Irene and even Darky haha I feel so close to them now and comfortable telling them what's going on. and it feels weird not seeing them LOLOl becus we basically lived with each other for the past five days... well yeah. niko was really really inspirational too:) seeing people praise in different ways and hearing different stories and testimonies. I don't regret anything that happened there.. it was all worth it. alumni niko for me is a must now LOL and I cannot wait!! I hope I live out everything I learned from niko^__^ & now it feels like nothing can bring me down.. I'm so happy for no reason and I don't even care that I have so much hw LOL well yeaah niko was really a blessing and it was just what I needed^__^ God is soo goood!

white chicks

so so so funny .. one of my fave movies :D

today was so unproductive .. -_-
basically woke up at around 6 ...
ate, oovoo, tv, movies, read ..
barely any hw done :(

i slept too much today i'm not tired at all hahaha
time to do some homework i guess LOL :D bai

1:34am

april fools
its .. 1:44am hohhoho

april fooled so many people ... dum dummies :)
esp jenny omg HAHAHAHA
1. "OMG tell me from the beginning. tell me EVERYTHING HE SAID tell me."
2. "ok im in the parking lot behind the white car im here.."
heahehoho <3
but holyyyy .. this morning while my sister and i were getting ready, my mom runs into our bathroom all frantic and her phone next to her and shes like gasping for breath and says "RYAN JUST GOT INTO A CAR ACCIDENT!!" ... my heart like dropped T_T but then it was april fools... shoot haha gawd mother ..

today was a chiilll day :)
skipped 3rd & 4th for rally, did nothing in 2nd, and nothing in 6th. woooh !!
went to this operation smile club meeting -_- so .. boring .. and hot ....
went to church and learned about sanctification! good talk with pyun.
stayed at church til like 10:45... waited for the teachers to end their meeting T_T
taught julie guitarraa and jam sesh pwahah :D

finalllyy we went to tea station with julie, teacherstacey, teacheredith, and teacherkeziah! i love going out with the girl teachers cus they so .. mature and know so much haha. and julie & i always just tell them everything cus its not like they have anyone to tell and they give such good adviceee ^_^
ate soo much ... talked and laughed loootss :)
i hope in da future when i'm older, i'll still have contact with them heh .

i am sick i think ..
or its allergies . but i sneeze so much T_T and my eye itches ..
i hope i dont get sick -_- i started my . yesterday tooo sigh ...
how the heck am i gonna survive niko ... please i really hope it goes away by monday or ima be soo uncomfy and sad ...
ahahah dangg 2 more days !! :)

why is nobody online tonight ... so loonely.
o welll good night then :D

ugh..

you piss me off :(
i wish i can never see you & remember ..

YES

so glad and relieved that today's over (:
basically today I...
went to 1st, studied and finished hw, then band and did hw and study, then Spanish test, then history benchmark, then study more at lunch, then English test, then math test...... T_T_T never been so packed like today.
but finallly at least I got it over with !! tomorrow I just have hw due and one test and RALLY woohoo !
afterschoool went to coconut bay with priscilla jess crystal pam . ate so much... met up with sharrong at class302. bought 3 shaved ice holy....LOL death.
left and had da bestest car ride LOL. sang our lungs out ..... so embarrassing though sigh HAHA we were all singing and it was party in the usa. and it usually goes "yeeeah party in the usa! yeeeeah party in the usa!!~" but wth. crystals song only had the first part of it.. and I sang it so loud and everyone just stopped HAHA I h8 u all.
dropped off everyone and went home :)
hahaha goood day. happy birthday jessica! dang.. 5 years haha love you kinda sorta <3

29 March 2011

oooo mla format for date L O L k


i hate school :)
lunch time ..... davidchoi sat in front of me right when i made my delicious lunchables pizza with FOUR pepperonis. so i was hiding it .. and crystal was helping me LOL then she took me near the lunch lines to eat my little pizza in peace ...
but then TWO of my pepperonis fell off when i was taking my first bite . i was so sad you don't even know .. like i really teared sigh . why why WHY.
now i know i need to put the pepperoni FIRST and then the sauce and cheese so it doesnt fall off . tomorrow i shall do it. :)
so then i was crying and we went back to my seat to finish my pizza ..
david sees me and eats it -sigh- fail LOL

afterschool;;
summer school lottery for civics/econ ... but NOPE! was there for like an hour and didn't get in -_- .. so my ride left me and had no ride home ...
so me, joey, daniell, clarak went to L&L and ate some $1 spam masubi <3
daniel got 10 .. i ate 6 .. joe ate 5 .. clara ate 2 .. HAHAh
got dropped off at lees cus i had nowhere to go .. hahaha
oOHH so in the rooom it was me, jason, and crystal. jason wanted my spam masubi .. at lees they have cameras in the room now so we dared him to get up on a chair and eat his spam masubi right in front of the camera.. AHHAHAHAHAAHA
then the guy came in LOLOL !! so funny ....
stayed there til 730 .. knocked out in the car. woke up extra cranky LOl :(
but its k im eating yoplait strawberry yogurt ho yah!

heh k bai

rant

i hate how getting license is such a big deal -____-
if i could get it, i would .. i'm not even being lazy about this . i made 6 license appointments but i couldn't go every time .
i feel bad now about getting it cause my dad is having a hard time with work and insurance is expensive and we're not financially stable like before...
but UIHGAUIWHJSD I REALLY NEED IT . i'm seriously stranded at least twice a week.. asking everyone for rides and places to stay. :'( i hate asking for rides and stuff ....
when people ask me why i didnt get my license, i'm okay with it.. but when they rub it all up in my face .. -_- "WHERES YOUR LICENSE MICHELLEEE DRIVING IS SO FUN YOU SUCHA LOSER HAHA" ....... just no. so annoying. there's seriously like 3 people who ask me every single day wth. can i slap you please? -_-
ah..... i really wish i can get my license.
k end rant.

rhythm of .. love (:

currently obsessed with that song ... :')
don't be surprised if i come and sing it to you okie?

today was a funny day i gotta say (hey that rhymes)
cof- got in trouble HAHAHAHAHAHAH but it was so funny .... my stomach was hurting from trying not to laugh T_T but jenny & i met eye contact and started cracking up ... right in front of her LOL. 300+ word essay here we come~
went to quickly & carls jr after w/ vincent crystal june jenny david daniel! barely played but oh well....
then off to band concert. -whew- crystal and i made it RIGHT IN TIME LOL T_T so scary.

heheho
good mood
good friends
good vibes
good day
:)

mhmm

you know i got you :)

sitting, waiting, wishing

driving me crazy....

church all day ..

from 930am-7pm.......... so tired.
had a loong one hour niko meeting with darky, karan, julie, irene, and pastor yun. HAEHAHHAO SO EXXCITEEEED!! <3
he told us what to pack and stuff .... im so disgusted cus he said to only bring one other shirt and three underwear only .. and like only 2 pants T__T
and it might snow and we're gonna have to sleep outside on the snow ..
i kennot believe its in a week .. :D JAOWJDSHHOHAWIO !!! :D
thenn ate burgers and ramen with the senior girlzz cus of the basketball bbq. jennys ride of pyun and my dad was cooking -__- ..
so we watched all the men play basketball and it was so intense & funny .. HAHAHA :)
but wooot ! highschool team won yayay so proud :')
goot bonding day with little jenny hehahe

buT now i am so tired + im sick T_T
outside the whole day in the cold.. miko's huge skii jacket thing saved me though <3 so warmmmmm
okie done wit da homework. gooodnight to YOUU :)

loverz&friendz

Friday;;
doctors afterschool with mama park. T_T went grocery shopping and bought sooo many things <3 didnt eat the whole day so my mom let me buy like lunchables, pringles, fruit snacks, chef boyardee, etc etc HAHA. but of course im not eating it all.. for future k. went out to eat with the family at banana bay! college talked ._. my bro is too smart. went to buy claras gift and then off to claras house!
girls met up at claras house then motel 6 .. met up with jason and the "coolest seniors ever".. played & talked & played & talked :) fun fun fun fun. except somEEE things.. back to claras house at 4am .. sneaking in process. we were so hungry so we went down but her mom was sleeping there LOL SO SCARY. went to sleep.. sharon was dead and wouldnt move and took up half the bed -_- jessica & i were stuck in the corner basically sleeping on each other LOLOL

Saturday;;
woke upp and craved some pho LOL. went at 10am and ate :) yummmmy. drove around EVERYWHERE T___T went to lollicup, then ralphs, dropped off crystal, dropped off jessica, went to claras, watched tv, went out again to pick up jack, then ralphs again, and finaaallly dropped me off at joes house. seriously i had no place to go ... nobody picks up my phone calls :'( except joe cus he sits in front of his phone waiting for me to call LOLOLL sooo went to joes with danielyi thinking i can go to lees area with them @ 330 so i can just walk to irenes house cus i thought i could go ... but thought wrong LOL my heart dropped x__x the guys had class so i just stood outside .. no place to go. hate that feeling. parents at work, fought with my brother ... finallly after an hour my brother decided to pick me up <3

& now i am home .. home sweet home finally.
church revival soon! time to pray my heart out...... L O L .

SO TIRED

omgah why am i so sleepy these dayz ......
can't control my sleepiness T_T

today was so sucky. i hate school & i hate band.
during lunch, went to santiago hs in corona for band festival. just sat there for 2 hours -_- whats the point of coming so early..
but had good fun talks with crystal sharrong pam and danielyi :) band crew heck yea
performed and alla that .. i thought we did goood :D hehaho band nerd
came home @ 7 with pam , went to her house , picked up then went to chipotle, met up with familiaaaaaaa, now i am home.

i feel like its 12 T__T
these days i been sleepin so early .. like at 10 . and then i wake up super late for school and im still tired during the day .. ahhh .

weekend

friday- went to international deli with irene ashley jenny.. but ashley left so early . bought so much candy and then chris took us to irene's. watched movies and stuff but I knocked out like on irene's foot or something and drooled HAHA why do I always drool only on your bed...? went to praise and ugh omg -_- .. game night at church !! oo and welcome home brotha

saturday- act 9-1 . mt sac band performance 115-430 ... wasn't that bad I guess .. just played and talked with sharon daniel shawn.. did pretty well :) thenn went home yes. did all my hw and stayed home alone the rest of the day.. nothing to do :( nobody was online either -_- cousin came at like 1130 (: yayy! ate in n out though HAHA.

sunday- church... rained so hard!! the radiation here is the same amount as smoking one cigarette.. pretty bad o_o came home, fell asleep. other cousin came over woohooo :) went out to eat all you can eat kbqq!! <3 ate SOOOO much........ shoot like soo much =_= i ate the most T_T. went to half and half after .. came back and talked :) sb cousin left ..

duude yay this whole weeks gonna be so chill. tomorrow is just chem test and cof . come home and probably eat out :) then tuesday leaving school during lunch for band festival! come home and play ! Wednesday my moms letting me skip school (: both cousins are here and we gonna do something super epic ... we better !! Thursday everybodys leaving though :( but YESSS skipping tutor this whole week <33

yay can't wait !

excited

brother from berkeley came home last night
cousin from cornell coming home tonight
cousin from santa barbara coming home tomorrow

<333 !!

wait what?!

I do not understand why people can assume things so quickly and easily -__-
i don't wanna be mean or anything but it just bugs me ... I don't want anyone to get the wrong idea that I'm indirectly trying to tell them "something"...
idk, just something I thought of..
like all of my posts with random quotes or lines are just random or towards my friends that I'm really close to / miss .. or just things that changed from before .
so yeah don't get all excited thinkin it's you or whateverzz . sorry .

loong day.

afterschool went to class 302 with janelle, kevinhung, crystal, and laura! weeird group yah but it was fun :) long time no seeee laura
ate so much and talked and laughed
took the randomest pictures ever HAHA
went to get kevins eyebrows "pierced" .. he cried MAWAHAH
went to the track meet later and saw some people running intensely hahah
tutor @ 7-8
out with sarah til 9
now .. signing up for upcoming act test :\
ahhh .. should i or no? T______T

i am so pooped.
goodnight.

HI HI

OK LIKE I SERIOUSLY HATE HEBERT WTH IS HER PROBLEM .........
EVERYBODY DID UP TO #6 LIKE ME AND SHE DIDNT GIVE ME A STAMP .. LIKE REALLY? WHY? T__T
when she skipped me .... *tear* literally......
did good on my "orals" in my espanol. :) mrs martyr loooves me hehe she's so nice to me LOL
4th period ... went to donate blood. was so nervous.. haha waited for like 45 minutes or so and in the end i couldnt even donate -___- .. so pissed cus i really wanted to :( they expect 5'3 to be 124 pounds and 5'2 to be 130 pounds ?!?! are you kidding me ... thats like stumpy little oompa loompa blueberry status .. o well got free food and i got to see people faint and stuff LOL :o
english ... agh 2 tests so hard -_-

afterschool;;
went to sarahbbangs house again and knocked out til 6 ...
didnt wanna go to tutor yet ... so ate chicken nuggets first then decided to eat pho HAHAHA! true fatties -_-
went to tutor @ 7 .. then back to sarahs.
came home & felt so fat omg -_- ran & ddonged.

YEEEEAP KKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
bye june!

hate that feeling

replaced
misunderstood
unimportant
used
not cared for

I dislike windy & hot weather

todaaay! should have been good but idk why i'm so depressed LOL
why does hebert hate me so much :'( makes me wanna cry every morning.
but yay got a 100% on history test !! (=
afterschool;; ate pho with joee! golden bowl da best.. he drove today surprisingly o_o such a stiff nervous lookin driver HAHA laughing the whole time I was in the car... got mcdonalds ice cream and then he dropped me off at sarahpangs.
ughh right when I got there.... knocked out in like 3 min no joke HAHA.... slept for and hour or so while she ate spring rolls without me >:o
tutor 6-8 ... home sweet home .

I feel so weird and empty these days.. por que ?! I do not know .
feelin so weak and tired at school... depressing moodz.
I feel so like T_T idk... so lonely LOL so alone ....
where did everybody goo when I need them the most :(

weeeekend

Friday- Breamall with sharon pam jessica grace ! bought stuff and walked around so much T_T mongolian grill was closed omg.... KJAIDKSJD so sad. sooooo went to eat spicy kimchi and it was bomb <3 finished the whole kimchijjigae... each and every drop LOL and still i wasnt even full -___- so bought taro boba mmm :) first time drinking it and its yummy. went to pamelas house after and crystal came at like 10 ... and when she came we all left LOL fail crystal.

Saturday- ACT testing -_- why am i always in such a bad bad BAD mood after i take the test... like seriously i cannot sit still for 3 hours straight T_T usually its just me and sarah in the room taking the test, but sarah didnt even come.. whenever its just us i always bang my head on the wall and we talk and laugh. ugh but there were like five random strangers.. so i was all squished and wanted to sock everybody. did good on the first 3 sections but when science came, KAJDIAOJIJDK i wanted to kill everybody LOL T_T mama picked me up and went to boiling crab with my grandparents and cousins :) bought so much and ate so much ... i ate the most outta everybody LOL. bought 5 dungeoness crab and 4 pounds of shrimp ... so goood. ate cake there tooo. hehe my grandmas so cute she was singing happy birthday to herself HAHA. afterrrrr, went to church for praise seminar ! came so late so didnt really do much .. went to ireneys house after. knocked out for 10 minutes but it felt like an hour HAHAHA...... drooled on her bed. why do i always drool on your bed HAHAHA sorry. :D pam picked me up and went to jessicas with grace ! watched tv and talked and laughed and ate and made chocolate covered strawberries infused with.. LOL. good laughssss <3 crystal came late again and we made her eat the strawberry but fail HAHA.. watched movies and yeaap. then the worst happened -_- got into a biiiig fight with my parents. ugh they piss me off... what kinda parents are they T_T they didnt wannt to pick me up so i had to sleepover but i couldnt cus long story... so i kept calling them and asking but theyd just hang up-_- tried calling chris and michael and joe but it was so late and yeah .... bawled like crazy HAH embarrassing. but jessica came up and saw me and comforted me ^_^ ty beast. haha made me realize a lot of stuff even though we barely said anything ... haha but yah THANKS GURRRL. watched more movies and i kept knocking out and i remember grace tleling me to go sleep with her but i kept saying NO IM AWAKE LOL. hahah so she went up and i knocked out again....

Sunday- pamela took me back to db but it was soo late T_T parents got mad again cus i went to church late....... sigh. came home and knocked out for couple of hours with my momm hahah . ate samgyupssal <33333333 dang i ate so much this weekend :( diet starting up again this week no worries HAHA.

goood/bad weekened but overall good . yeap hahah :)

ACCOMPLISHED

- brought my card to school this morning for ireneeee.. but i know mrs hebert wont let me go out at 7:50 to give it so i was all sad cus i could only give it during lunch ..that card made me sleep at 3 man. BUT THEN! sub :') so chill... let me go out and made irene cry tears of joy HAHa right irene?!?!
- the whole day , stressin about the "surprise" thing haha! such late notice.. i thought only like 3 people would go too. we got everything set and ready by lunch. called her mama and her mama changed her tutor time to laterrr. BUT irenee T_T she got so mad at her mom cus her mom said to "get a ride home".... and then irene was all sad and mad and kept saying she didnt wanna come over cus she has tutor and would have no ride.. so called her mom like 6 times and figured everything out without irene knowing cus shes so clueless LOL! and then finaallly we leave school at 3:40 with june irenena and irenejeon
- came to my house and just played. irenejeon and her deadly foot stench x__x
- called eunice and alla them and they got the balloons and everything ready :) so went to "target"/"macoroni grill to eat ice cream" AHHAHA. went to macoroni grill and surprised irene :) ty julian eunice & sarah !
- hehe she had like the biggest smile on her face ... so cute HAHAHA. we got like our "vip" dark room section pwahhaha. ate so much foood... bought irenes dinner woooooopeee. but dangit -_- no opera singer.. ugh. but we caked her LOL
- got dropped off at harvard square with ireneyjeoney and just talked and waited for her mom... yeeeeap
- & now i just finished my gatsby i-search paper :') shoot... my essays good i think hahah

SUCCESSFUL DAAAAY! :)

pwned.

hahah another super fun happy good day <333 so I'm gonna write like a LOT again HAHa deal wit it.
went to church and played today is the day HAHa woot! Irene and her mad skillz. o yea slappin da bass!!! you go gurl HAHA
everyone stayed at church so long today o_o talked about niko once again LOl pyun ughlajdlaj !! June & I stayed in ma car o yah haha stole gncs food... junes sister took us to starbucks and met up with karan and carolinee. did some homework and sarahcho camee. bought my first coffee at starbucks !! lOL :') Sarah had to go home and get something so I walked with her and she gave me clothes omg :') yayy. good laughs cus we were doing psycho stuff in the streets LOL decided to go to julies house without telling her but we shouldn't have hahah .. omg her face was da best when she saw us HAHa. took her away from home ;) and went back to starbucks and then karan and junes housey! they were looking at makeup .. it's all bout natural beauty guyz cmon... hehahha :) went to pho! me and julie didn't wanna eat so we just got free soups and ate like hobos and stared at them eating their delicious foods.. THEN the most epic thing happened =_=
k so like this man in the corner of the room told the worker that he'll pay for us.. and so he did. and we were creeped out cus yeah o_o or we thought he felt bad for us cus me and julie were hobos there. but then we saw him and he was with him family and they were like praying together so we thought he just did it ad an act of kindness LOL. so we were all tearing and like omgomg he's such a good man <3 HAhA and we all assumed stuff LOL JUNE " dude guys I know him he's famous I know it." they even bought us an extra plate of food with spring rolls and egg rolls and alla those stuff. so we gobbled it up and then sarah karan julie decided to go say thank you and stuff .. and by the time me and june got up they were already there. and right then, the worker says "it was the wrong table.. he meeant to pay for them not you guys.." and right when he said that it was too late to tell them and their faces were omg HAHA. they came back and said "omg he was pretending like he didn't pay for us . gosh he's so humble :')" but HAHA turns out it was for the other table and not ours... so embarrassing =_= but we ended up still getting free food cus the worker paid for us but yeah SO embarrassing T_T so we like ran out and HAzhzs ahhhh...
walked back to kim seastars house and everybody was all high and crazy LOL gosh just cus I had a picture of myself on my phone... omgah LOL so we were all like wrestling and julie gave me the worst wedgie ever T__T HAHA . y u guys all gang up on me......
then just played guitarra and started talking and talking and talking and had really good conversations and yeah :) I wish I could talk like this easily with peoplee. I love how I'm so comfortable with church people and we do stuff we wouldn't do at school LOL. just had a really good talk that I needed .. idk but yeah :)
I'm so happpy I had such a great weekend LOL I never have fun weekends anymore which is sad.. haha but yep I really needed this :) yayy <3

rock climbing

omgomg good fun timez. I wish today didn't end :( it was so perfect and so kfhslsjeh LOL.
I'm gonna write it like detaily cus it makes me happy and cus today was just too good :D
first, went to church and saw the milal kids hehe. Isaac and his bee ew.. LOL Irene all sad cus she got rejected <3
left to go rock climbing with james, chris, josh, darky, caroline, karan, julie, sharon, pyun, tank, and teacher stacey (:
got there and met a mannequin lookin man LOOL so scary but cool.. he taught us about all the harness' and stuff HAHA. so me&julie were partners and I was holding the rope and it looked like a piece of cake.. but holy mama when I got to the top... *tear. I realized that I'm really scared of heights even though I'm only like 6 feet up... but it looks so high T_T rock climbing is waay harder than it looks even with a harness.. took so long for julie and I to get up there together to take a picture HAHA.
and when you pull the rope too fast to bring the other person down.. omg ultimate wedgies T_T darkys such a weakling... teacher stacey is BEAST. she beat all the teachers and guys in rock climbing... took her like a minute to get up the hardest one LOL.
oomg and then we leveled up and decided to go boulder climbing which is climbing without the ropes... dude so fun but hard.
ONGJwvIwhLwj k there's like a cave thing where you go through this super long obstacle course but it's like so claustraphobic and tiny and you have to crawl everywhere . and there were like 12 feet drops and it was pitch black and so hot. and there's also like flashing lights area and ladders and poles and slides but it's pitch black.. some people fell into the drops and HAHA so funny. first time I went after teacher stacey and omg it's like SO tiny and super hot and since we crawl, my face is facing her butt. and dude she farted on my face with my mouth open cus I was talking lOLOLOL omg =_= humidness + fart = death -_- so later I went before her and since it's pitch black I kept saying "BLOODY MARY" and grudge stuff and she was so scared and crawled all the way back down... HAHA. then sharon LOL "MICHELLE ARE YOU OKAY?? MICHELLE ILL COME GET YOU HOLD ON MICHELLE!!" HAHAHA <33 peed. well my partner left me so I had to go back down sigh.
ate ceasars pizza and crazy bread. so delicious and savory <3
hehe then the guys and the girls except darky cus he's a big baby -_- went into the tunnel again and the guys went first . and halfway through they started punching the walls cus they were so hot and frustrated cus they're so big LOOL. and we can hear them saying "tell the girls to go back down tell them to reverse TELL THEM" HAHAH and then in the end we asked how it was and they go "oh it was so easy!!" hahaha :)
took so many pictures LOL memoriess. tortured darky and gave him the best wedgies ever HAHA and he was stuck hanging on the harness hehe.
went back to church and just all talked for like three hours :) about so many things.. I love good fun random talks :) sleepover plan was a failure :( but it made up for it !
I think this was like the most fun church outing.. everyone wasn't separated and no awkwardness and just yeah. but soo tiring all of us got calises or wtv and our forearms hurt so bad.. such a good workout dude LOL
yeee need more days like these. never gonna miss church outings cus they're so fun and best bonding time <3
good good good goood day !!! :)

T__T

why am i in such a pissed off depressed mood -_-
i think its cus i took act practice test this morning and i didnt finish the science part and i got so pissed cus i thought i did well but that last parts gonna make my score so low T_T_T_TTIKRAIJWIJDIJWDH

i hope the outing's fun today.. even though its only like 5 girls going + darky HOHO :)
good bonding time finally ... i hope.

k this week i realized i have been gaining weight becus of everybody's mean comments LOL sigh
so time to exercise like for realzzzzz
dangit i kinda wish cof running was still going on -_- the leaders used to run 9 miles every saturday in the morning right next to my house ... so convenient. and it wasnt even that hard to run 9 miles cus we got so used to it...
NOW LOL when i walk from lees to south pointe.. omg . dead.
omg but my most accomplished goal ever was running 3 miles in 30 min HAHAHAHA is that bad..? dude ithink thats like pro for me ^_^_^
and then running a half marathon aka 13 miles and receiving a medal <333 felt so accomplished after HAHA
yeah im talking to myself now.. yay k byeeeeee off to church!

chills

why is everything so hard right now.. everythings going so bad with every part of my life... school to friends to family to money T_T
today was such a shocking day.. like I'm seriously so shocked idk what to do ..
I feel bad for my dad but at the same time I really don't care -_- I know it's messed up that I say that but seriously -_- right now everythings going downhill for him I guess but it's his fault ..

ahhh I hope things get better ..

overalll

such a bad horrible day T_T why do I have bipolar days.. one day is happy day and the next is sad day hahah
sometimes I just wanna shut off everybody... everyones so annoying and immature and just mean T_T ...
don't be so inconsiderate .. if someones already having a bad day then you just make everything worse by those little things .
afterschool went to harvard square -__- but at least I got to eat with Irene!! cus tuesday=michelle&irene date day HAHA :)
yay I kinda made friends today HAHAHA other than sarah .. woot T_T
then math tutor ugh ahdlahslaks . my whole day spent at tutor ew ew . germs .
plus I have two tests tomorroww :(
study... sleep at 1. yay me.

today is quite the day oh yes

happy for no reason again LOL big smile on my face :DDDD
played cards with john jason daniel and sharon during band. Sharon and I lost and they were like GERMAN TORTURE!!! cheaters..
so me and Sharon switched back and forth every card omg death.....T_T
tomorrow we have a 1950s thing .... eat ice cream and dress/talk like 1950s people hahaha
afterschool had cof and kathy was extra scary like she was CRAZY... but I feel bad for her :( sigh poor little kathy.....
got in trouble three times today woopeee~
went to tutor after til 8 =_= yeap
my sister got a D on her test and my parents yelled at her so much... so sad :( she cried and yeah LOL :'(
boring day bit still pretty happy I donno why (=

aw boo..

gotta wait another month to get my license :'( why does this keep happening to me.. license gods don't want me -sigh- something always comes up or something dbangjeima...
todaayy went to church and I was the teacher for the day HAHAH. but only for my group...and it had to be irenena&irenejeon LOL the two who are most distracting ....
but idk I thought it was a good talk and discussion time (= hahahah
came home and separated nametags for cof... so gross -_- all the buddies nametags have food or slime stuff on it especially kathys =_= like spaghetti or kimchi or jjajangmyun sauce ... and my mom saw and ran and got me hand sanitizer HAHAHa she's messed up....
later watched the oscars with the fam & ate chipotle with the coupon thingy ohehehhe

I been having bad dreams lately kinda T_T June and crystal both teamed up on me and made me cry LOLOL and then the dream continued today during my nap and they were like talking bad about me and keeping secrets from me LOL so sad ... made me sad...

I can't wait for nikoooo ^__^
I'm gonna sleep at 11 today woohooo gnight :)

pisssed off ..

-_- my dad tells me right now that he can't take me to get my license when for the past weeks he said he would =_= so now I have to wait like two more weeks wth. ughamsnakownxbj :( I just wabnt get it over with wHY DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING TO ME?? -___-

today was such a boring day. why are people so boring and dull.
got 100% on my English test though!! and math test wasn't that bad but I'm not gonna jinx myself.. *knock on wood*

afterschool;; harvard square again. Sharon ditched me again too. =_= never again will I ask you to come eat with me. hahah jk maybe. irene came for Picasso so I met up with her after eating mcdonalds by myself again. stayed and heard her play piano magically :') so beautiful omg.. HAHA. her teacher kept talking to me about sat and stuff for jungsoo HAHa wth ahahaha
back to class at 6-8 T_T

studying is so tiring.. esp when yoou have no friends LOLOl :'(
finallyyy tomorrow no tutor. go bowling tomorrow for operation smile!! :) becus you have a great big smile :D LOLOL lame..



heehee. hi eunice.

T_T

ahhh... tutoring and studying from 330-1030 :'(
330-530: math + hw
530-600: had to eat dinner by myself ): Sharon ditched me ugh... I had no money and she said shed spot me and right when I come out from tutor to go eat, I see her leaving and I'm all wth cus yeah :( so she just left and so I had $4 so I ate fries by myself. so sad huh... sigh. all the people at harvard square are soo weird =_= nobody to socialize with... gotta get used to eating alone everyday LOL hahaha T_T
600-800: act tutor
800-840: math
840-1030: pamelas house with sharon joe & sarah for more math

sigh. no life..
but at least i'm doing stuff.. I gues it's good that I'm a loner LOLOL more studying but I got Sarah at least ;)
got A LOT done today. time to ace dat math test!!

im so dead tired. not gonna go on tumblr or fb ... time to knock out . zzzz ..

unusually good day

was very happy for no reason .. everybody just put a big smile on my face ^__^ it felt like I didn't see everyone for so long too so yeeah .. missed everyone LOL I miss people so easily heh.
I was like twenty min late to school cus my grandma drives 5 mph no joke omgahh..
I got a 95 on my spanish test oh yesss <3
afterschool I CAME HOME LOL June =_= I always go home ....
I have tutor everyday from 330-8 oh yay. T_T @ harvard square where nobody goes except me and sarahpang LOL . I guess it's better cus I couldn't concentrate at lees.
nooo just thinking about doing work for that long everyday makes me depressed hahahaha :P
went to rite aid after tutor and got cold sore medicine :'( ugh nooo why do I have to get it again ? beware guys I will kiss all of you unexpectedly and you'll get it too !!! we can be twins <3

dreeamz

last night i had a scary weird dream ..
i was like all shriveled up and i needed water and my skin was all wrinkly o__o
and then when i woke up i remembered that i was like dehydrated too at retreat kinda
like my hands were all purple and blue and my fingers all pruney LOL
yeap.. random but yeha heheh

k off to tutorrr soon :'(

Winter Retreat 2011

Theme: servanthood
This retreat was seriously the most memorable for me... intense stuff mang.
Mmm I'll just bullet point.
- took us five hours to get up to the mountains.. T_T deadly hours of farts and smelliness asdfghjkl
- snowed on friday & saturday! the snow was like pure and gentle and light LOL and it was so pretty like winter wonderland yenno? but it was soo cold... 13 degrees one night
- I knocked out so fast everyday=_= barely got to talk and play games til late cus I was so tired & past my bedtime so yah
- the food was good !! I think we all lost weight cus there was like no junk food to eat during free time and stuff LOL and no ramen or anything :'(
- going ddong was main..LOLOL stunk up the whole room.. everyones poo was like rat droppings no joke T_T high elevation always does that + everyone gets gassy HAHA
- I think I really learned a lot.. my mind set was good cus I went up reminding myself not to fool around during service and stuff. so I really know everything pastor tim told us :)
- the praise team...<33 so. good..... everybodys like in love with them but BACK OFF GOSH !! heh but seriously they're all so good lookin and o0o0o :)
- omg and the lead singer knew me cus my cousins in his band and yeah :') thank you cousin <3
- the drummer LOOOLOkJsbeiwhwkal so good... embarrassing though when they all chanted my name to go up and play T_T gawwd so much pressure..y u do dat? I wouldve went up if only they asked but everybody?? sigh no thnx LOL
- oh and when we sat with them and played cards with them <33 laughed a lot and we rreally connected HAHAHA jk =_= but yeah he was supposed to do a dare ):
- k enough about them.. oh but he's 19 HAHA k jkjkjkjk....THE SNOW. omg snowball fights and tackles T_T outta nowhere like all the middle schoolers threw snowballs in my shirt and my face and hair and everywhere .... I was white all over..
- and another time, Irenena told me to get teacher keziah with her . so she threw it first and when I threw it she turned around and it hit her face LOLOL so I was like O ShoOt and fast walked away cus we'll fall if we run.. butshe started sprinting to me and tackled me into snow and my whole body was buried.. then outta nowhere teacher edith comes and puts my face in the snow and makes me eat it LOOOL!!
- German torture with poor little bby irenena and jennycho HAHA
- omg the balloon with Oreos hAHA =_=
- skits ... fail. BUT we got 4th place.. HAHA they shouldve just said from 4th argh.
- k now for the best part of retreat .. the last day. we were reading the part where Jesus cleans his disciples feet. so after , the teachers set up bins with water for us to wash each others feet too.. sounds funny right? but nobody took it as a joke.. washing someone feet..Haha didn't know it could be so emotional T_T everyone was just crying and praying for each other... even people I barely talk to came up to me and just prayed. & even little sixth graders came up to me and started crying :'( I love how we even had like praise team prayer together and it was so touching and yeah. tear* even prayed with my sister which I never do. I really like felt the Holy Spirit in the room.. I was shaking and we just couldn't stop crying. After that we had praise again and everyone was so happy with tears of joy :) felt good to just let everything out with prayer and after I felt so happy and light :) definitely one of the most emotional & spiritual & best night of my lifee. we all know when somethings super emotional when you see darky crying after a good prayer :')
- the girls just talked at night about like cof HAHA but me and ashley knocked out so early UGH .. but wtvs.
- snack shop LOLOl h8 it.
- ate ice snow water.. yumyum
- everyone knocked out on the way back & then my mom took me to eat the best kimchijjigae ever <3
- the accident with the other church gave me the chills.. what if that was our bus T_T ahh . how scary.. :(
- seniors last retreat. they were in a different group so we barely go to playT_T but I hope they all had a memorable last retreat :) I will surely miss them all next year -sigh- can't believe I'll be a senior..
- I feel like I got closer to everybody tooo<3 from little middle schoolers to ma gurlz. brothers&sisters in Christ 4 evr <3

heckyea

it is that time of the year againn.. RETREAT! all packed up and ready to go. :) I realllyy think it's gonna be good this year.. I have like a good feeling ... <3
today was a good day! many laugh attacks. hahahah.
came to school during brunch:) Spanish test was failLOL so hard.... =_= history was EZ.
omg lunch time haha . T_T NO I did not vomit or anything . NO there was no poo in my food. LOL.
so darkys messed up and never pays me back..so I couldn't buy lunch :( he kept asking everyone for money so in the end I said it's okay. so Jason had teriyaki and he didn't eat it all LOLOL and he went to play hacky sacky so I ate his food and then I saw like a little short hair and Chris and darky were like "EWW PUBE IN YOUR FOOD" I was grossed out so I spit my food out.. and then they go "EW EW EWWW" and then I hear like "EW" voices coming from different parts of the school .... -sigh- embarrassing x100

afterschool... stayed at school til late cus SOMEONE...LOLjk (: stayed with achoi and cyang and ate ate ate !! came home at 4 and knocked out in my snuggiee.

omg I think my sister has a thing with someone and he's so cute <333 we were oovooing with him HAHA . aw :')

chem lab is taking so long ugh .. and I wanted to upload new songs into my touch but it's so late :( YES rally schedule tomorrow. gonna be a chill dayy! then retreat at 4 and it'll be snowing up there :) so excitedd!

LAJSDKLAJKSD

Just let out your true feelings & thoughts. :)

I AM HERE !!

funday

1. chem I hate chem ..her lectures are way too long and boring =_= one hour and thirty minutes of torture .
2. aw man why do I have to do duet with him LOL he sux... now the beat is all off and alfbalsn bugs me . sorry band geek 4evr 8) .
3. yay for subs!! this girl in my class was like sharing her subway LOl and then she took out soda in a water bottle and opened it and it popped everywhere .. the cap went all the way across the room haha and the sub was chill and just laughed . so her and another girl went to the restroom to get tissues and guess what?! mrs martyr was right there at a Spanish meeting HAHA . epic fail. she came out and yelled at them ....
4. jeapordy..david-_- so competitive over a game for just our test. =_= well yeah. test tomorrow. hoorah.
5. gosh she's so anal now ): made me switch test forms cus I had the wrong one BUT ITS NOT MY FAULT THEY PASSED IT BACK WEIRD. made me do the odds of the page but whtever. Ima rebel sooo I just did evens mwahah LOL.
6. tests HAHAHA pretty funny ... lowest grade: 3/25 . :o

Afterschool;;
Irene's with Ashley . did encouragement bags for retreat! & fb stalked all the praise team LOL ashley left so early and Irene left me alone in her house with her scary parents for an hour cus flute -_- I was treated like the hated stepsister LOLOL Isaac like opened irene's door and threw a pizza box inside and left ..and I'm savage so I ran and ate it like I was homeless LOLOl. her mom kept calling mee agh so frightening . meanwhilee I had some fun in her room ;) mahahah. she finally came home and like raped me outta no where wth :( punched kicked threw pillows and tried to undress me omg ?! raper alert . molester ....... then she got all mean :( LOOL HAHAHA omg so Irene was laughing like a hyena and then her mom yelled at her to be quiet cus her laugh is like annoying I guess HAHAHAhA. got some abs today :)decorated the bags and then went homee . (:

good day goood laughs
sorry if I pissed you off LOLOl <333

To: the people who care

Might not seem like it but you guys are on the top of my list. :')

I love you all. GOODNIGHT. <3

bet on it

LOL so Jason and darky are making a bet:
Jason- get a six pack in a month
darky- lose twenty pounds in a month
pwahaha this shall be interesting (: and now everyones interested and placing their bets on Jason or darky HAHA & the girls are trying to do lose ten in a month but we all know that's kimpossible~~

lunch was fun todaay! lots of laughs. Spanish test , moved to Thursday cus of the broken copy machine YESSs. did okay on the english quizz. great gatsby is kinda fun. :P math test..idk LOL I always never know cus I get answers for it but the teachers are so smart and tricky =_=

came home and my sister like knocked out HAHA. & she's still sleeepingLOL. did hw and whatever and fell asleep at 6-11. <3 yay tomorrow; making encouragement bags LOL gonna see ____ play the ____ finally HEHAHAHA . :)

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why am I so depressed ... adhkshsal I was perfectly fine something is wrong with me. I have so many things inside me that I need to let out but why is it so hard -_- came home from cof today and went up to my room and started crying for no apparent reason . I realized that I haven't had a real good talk with anyone for the longest time. and it's becoming really hard for me to open up to people cus I'm jst not used to it anymore. I remember when my old sunday school teacher took me out and we had the best talk ever...she completely understood me and was seriously like psychic. she said that she feels like I have a plate full of tears ready to let out and it's good to just cry it out even if you don't want to.. and at that moment I just like started bawling for like thirty minutes and she was just there comforting me.. and i think that same thing is happening again. I hate putting up a fake smile every single day just so people won't come up to me and ask me what's wrong and I'll just start tearing T_T & the sad thing is that I feel like I don't have anyone to tell stuff to these days. I know that there's people who will listen and be there but it's so hard to even tell them anything becus it doesn't seem to do anything to make me feel any better.. so I jst keep it in and not tell anyone. nobody just understands..

so for the upcoming retreat. I really have to prepare for it and pray that things will go well. and that I'll have the chance to let things out and have that close relationship with God again. when I felt like I was at my high peak of my Christian life I felt really worry free and I remember I prayed every single day whereever and whenever.. in the shower, during passing period, at night, etc. I'd just talk and pray. gaaah I hope I don't just get that retreat high.. akfhlajsls

sigh why are things so hard these days?

i. am. pregnant....

omg i ate so much today and its only 4 LOL. kimchijjigae at church <3 and then sushi q for the first time with church girlz + julian & justin. ate soo much i had to unbutton. LOL eunice took me home but we stopped at dbhs to go to her locker. and when i went up the stairs i was so tired HAHAHA.

today @ church was goood. we had like an all girl thing where we talk about our theme & stuff for our retreat on friday. & like the teachers opened up to us and told us so many stuff :o and people were crying and yeah....
i am so excited for retreat!! i have a feeling its gonna be like intense and hardcore LOL cus theyre "changing it up" and stuff.... :O :D :D

askdjasdlkj i really hope retreat impacts me a lot ... and if i go to niko retreat then there toooo :)

I HAVE FOOD COMA BYE

on ze phone with my buddy

argh so frustrating .. Kathy just talk to meee ): stop saying "idontknow" LOL. whenever I talk to her she doesn't respond and when i'm silent and not speak she says "UHHUH YEAH OK YEAh I'm fine." she's playing fun factory play doh while watching sesame street hehahah..
anywayss today was a tiring day even though I did nothing. woke up at 8 for act practice test til 1. came home and knocked out til 430.. and then watched a movie online by myself ): cus I was home alone the whole day hahah.
oh and today's my moms birthday..I thought I couldn't go out cus we'd do something so I didn't bother to ask but her friends stole her away from us LOOl psh. so didn't get to go to graces..I hope all of y'all dont die HAHA jk be safe girlz. my dad brought home mikes cajun :') and we ate like savages. I think that's like my top ten fave food now :D my mom came home and she was sad we didn't write her a card but it was actually hidden in her laptop and then when she opened it it was there and she got happy hehe.
& now I am here doing homework booo. I'm so full T_T LOL useless post kk

Sucks..

how one person can ruin your whole day... I hate when people go so overboard with their jokes. like seriously it's not funny -_- & what makes it worse is that people actually laugh and encourage them when they do it, which makes them do it more & more. and I HATE how even my close friends laugh at the joke. and when I get pissed they think I'm overreacting and be all wth to me. everytime someone does that to my friend I don't laugh =_= I always back them up cus I would hate it if someone would do that to me..
"how would you feel if that happened to me? treat others as you would want to be treated." LOL idk why but I always keep that quote going on in my daily basis. the "golden rule." I know I don't always follow it cus that's pretty hard but i try.. cus it sucks to be treated with no respect.
well, yeeah LOL another rant. I got over it quickly though cus I'm pretty used to it so -_- other than thatt, another good day!

if I wanted to tell you something, I would..

why are people so nosy!! stop constantly asking me over and over about a problem I have.. dang if I wanted to talk to you about it then I would. I hate how people always ask me just to find out info about me or they're just curious and they wanna know. I could tell when people actually care and when people are just asking. -_- well I guess when people ask "what's wrong" I don't really mind cus they noticed I looked down.. but when people ask that and I say "nothing" and they keep asking and asking -_- omg shush please. & then after they get all pissed that I don't tell them about my problem. maybe I don't wanna tell you or talk about it!!! & everything just gets worse when they get pissed off at me and glare..really now. if you saw that I was sad looking then why would you make it worse by giving me dirty looks? & then they say "wow you never tell me anything-_-" and walk away. wow GzgYSjIwhsiajwb die.

LOL this didn't happen to me today but just thought about it and yeah. end rant. (:

zzzz

- I'm so tired..gonna sleep early (:
- omg when I read your tumblr post I got so -_- IM not the one posting stuff about you!! honestly I posted only like 3 -_- but I had a reason to..yours are all random and not relevant. & don't think my tumblr posts and reblogs are about you cus none of them were...
- today was happy day #2 :) everybody was in a laughing mood and just yeah :)
- omg but everytime I have happy days, after like the 4th something super bad happens LOL
- omg nOOOOO all the justo tickets are sold out ?!?! ugh I am pissed :'(
- k too lazy to write what I'm feelin. time to knock out. baai!

feb10

todayy symphonic band got to leave after 3rd for band festival! good laughs/talks even though it was only for a whilee. jasonyang and his friend LOL little eavesdropping sneakies. daniel fell asleep and he looked like a little ogre HAHA with an underbite LOL! got to the place and the schools basically like only for performing arts highschoolers and you have to audition to get in. that kinda coool heh I wouldn't mind going to a school like it's camp rock :D the whole day we walked in the wind and cold carrying our heavy instruments =_=. ate bomb hotdogs but it was $6... performed and SUCKED except for the orchestra part. our school played for like an hour straight hahah & in the end we got $UPERIOR woot! on the bus back we all knocked out hehe. my dad pickednme up an hour late T_T so I stayed outside and now I'm sneezing .. nooo. yeaap what a boring sounding day but actually i looved it :)

random thoughts

- afterschool went to VIP. saw danny and he complimented me HAHA secret texts. went to db library todayy! ate carls jr with joe and david & got the worst stomach ache =_= regret.. played with jennay and vincent and yeahyeahyeah
- omg my whole house I kinda remodeled ^__^ it's so cool and I'm excited to come home and see my "new" house HAHA. all the floors are wood except mine and my brothers. and so everything looks so fresh and clean ~
- sigh I think I get jealous too easily...jealous over like more personal stuff.. not like if they have a cool car or new clothes but yeah.. my jealousy can get to me sometimes -___- I get pretty sad LOL T_T
- when I meet new people..I always wonder in my head "would they be a good potential best friend" hahah kinda weird but I alwaysalways think like that..I seek da future~.~ haha or like if there's a decent guy I wonder "would they be a good potential husband" HAHA. I should just go with the floow and live life. but for new friendships or something I always wonder that.. and when we start getting close I get excited and happy LOL so exciting having a new friend that can maybe hopefully one day be a goood close friend :).
- k so I didn't go on fb, tumblr, and this for ONE day and it took an hour to go through everything with no breaks LOL! augh piss me off..but yay I don't have any homework today hahah except read (:
- tomorrows band festival!! I hope we do wellLOL. gonna skip school yayy
- I am master of dreaming no joke..like seriously every single time I think of what I wanna dream of..it comes true 90% of the time. but it only works if I sleep early..sleeping at 1230 or later doesn't workk so I try sleeping early now (=
- I hate how it's so windy and cold..but jk I like cold :D
- OMGOMGOMG so I found out theres gonna be a snow storm while we're at retreat <333 oh yes yes yess !! I wanna get locked in and stuff HAHA. (: I'm so excited for retreat. I hate how it's so late for winter retreat but woot I'm glad it's soon ^__^
- seniors..last retreat...sigh. I will miss them all. at the retreat speaking sesh I think I'll cry T_T.
- dangg long post . if you read it all LOL congrats.

2.7.11

1. chem test!! intense LOLOL
2. omg. I love men piano players.. I was staring at the guy playing and he's so pro (: my contacts fell off cus I stared too long LOL he has that 'omg cool' and big Adams apple and old fashioned glasses LOL and tall <3
3. I dislike Spanish. she didn't pass out our dedications back and if we didn't get ours by today then it's due a day later. and then it was thirty seconds til the bell rings and she called mine =__= boo you.. bidi bidi bom bom ~~
4. jae I h8 u. played german torture and I died ..owwieeeee I will get you back !!
lunch is lunch. so dang boring.
5. I dislike mrs crane to the max ..
6. omg so I didn't do my math hw and like I totally forgot to copy LOL so I wasdoing it during 5th and I wrote the question and not the figure..and all the questions were like "using the accompanying figure..blahblahblah" so I couldn't do it so I was just gonna finish during class and secretly use my pencil BUT everyone all around me were gone..wth ): for freshman remix so she could easily catch me... and later she told us she's nt gonna collect it <3 I was so happy LOL God loves me hahahah
Afterschool;; COF ...was so not in the mood but was better than expected! got in trouble with jenny like fifty times by different people LOL -_-magical cup oh em geee, Kathy about to slap me silly, jenga, etc etc. lots of laughsss <3
overall had a veryberry good day (=
K I am so tired I'm falling asleep while writing this...yawn*
gooodnight fellow bloggers !!

omg

ew ew ew ew my sister farted on MY pjs cus she thought the pants were hers but it's mine ....AUGH Dangit. it was like a soggy wet fart too-_- ...LOL time to bangoo on her pillows ohoho jk

today was good church day! except everyone kept calling me poodle LOL Omg ugh ...all irene na/jeon devils.
ireeene came over and wouldn't let me sleep...sang like monkeys. then went to puente and met up with claudia!! ate spam masubis and candy and more.. watched no strings attached :') and then the roommate. laughed a lot during the movies LOL I think everyone was annoyed.. o well.
came to mi casaa and ate ramen and microwave pizza and hot cheetos and stuffs. watched tv..listning to Irene criticize all the actors and claudia laughing like a hyena HAHA.

now I am in bed..so tired today T_T

so sleepy..

didn't take my daily nap today ): so I'm extra tired and I can barely open my eyes hahah
my Spanish thing took like one hour -_- gaaahhh.. and now studying for Spanish test ..
woww without naps I'm so dead and crnky and tired T_T

How sad...

-sigh- I know you know we're drifting but you don't do anything to bring it back together ):
Why am I always the one trying to fix things up...Naah I'm so sick of it T_T..
If you wanna talk to me you would! So whatevs..
So sad. Makes me think about how important our friendship was to you...

long time no post

i barely write in this now so i'm gonna try to write more..
well today was a boring ol day. 3 tests.... i think i did whatever .. -_- not that good though haha. seriously the whole day i was so busy and all my classes we did something the whole stankin period. i hate days like these.. T_T
WHY WAS TODAY EXTRA COLD .... it was sunny in the morning and when i got out of the car it was like BAM blizzard so cold ...... and then i had to walk all the way up the hill with boogers streaming down and tears coming out LOOOOL jk .....maybe.
i wanna do a 365 thing like rose !! i always write about my day anyways on tumblr or here... but i can never use the computer -_- im always on itouch 24/7. except now cus my parents arent home yeeee.
omg yesterday i made my family food :D like sandwiches and pancakes HAHA. and today i brought turkey sandwich and tuna ... i felt so fat but wtv cus it was delicious.
and now i am so drained out and tired .... i feel a good nap coming its way :)

Annoying..

Feelin distant from some close friends these days..but honestly I don't really care as much as I should -__-
Why is it that you'd say stuff like that about me but not about others? What did I ever do to you..
I should start being mean and tough like you cool kidz. LOL
Seriously it's getting on everyones nerves how you think you're so cool -_-
You're not cool and not a princess so stop acting like it!!
Give some respect to others and maybe they'll start respecting you and stop talking behind your back..
Please & thank you. Goodbye. (:

Why you guys all gotta be so selfish!!
It's nice to think of people other than yourself yenno..
Don't do what you wanna do all the time & make everything revolve around you and your plans..
We need more caring & loving people in dis world...

It feels like i'm trying too hard to keep friendships together..
Why does it seem like you don't care !! I bet if I stopped talking to some people they wouldn't even try to start conversations or anything.
Used & reused over and over ..no?


Friends forever, through thick & thin..?

...Nah. Prove it.

hebert

Why you gotta be so cruel? -sigh-
Today in chem class I was eating my granola bar as usual..and hebert comes to me and stops the whole lesson/class and lectures me about not eating in class..she was like "Michelle eating is a referral did you know? why do you eat in class? don't eat in here okay? just don't." and like the whole class was staring at me and Joe started laughing super loud LOL and now the whole class thinks I'm the fatty LOL=__=
She never told me to stop eating before omg.... but it's okay cus she motivated me to exercise daily now LOL heh

Day 1 exercise: ran in place ..for ten min LOL fail.

Worst feeling

is when you feel like your parents gave up on you...My whole family was lecturing me about school an college and everything and kept telling me how important it is. YES I know all of that do you think I don't? -_- So annoying how they just put me down and start laughing at me when I talk about school. How am I supposed to motivate myself if my family doesn't even care. It's not like I have zero chance into getting into a good school..-__- So why in the worldd are you guys already giving up on me..makes me feel like ugh. T_T Just cause I'm not super smart like my brother doesn't mean I can't do other things. Sigh you guys suck and I will remember this forever.

Hallo~

Today was chem and spanish finals... omgosh -_- people told me that 1a started at 8am so i came at 8. and it started at 730. -_- ..wow i h8 u all. so i got to hebert's class right when the bell rang and ....
me: *knock knock*
- 0.2 seconds later -
hebert: class.starts.at.7.30.
sigh. so took my chem final in da whole 2 hours but it wasnt that bad. and plus shes curving it so =).
then, spanish final..... kaskjdkads i bet i got a B or C or something omg :( it was kinda hard haha

afterschool;;
was gonna go study with people but everyone bailed out and stuff so i had no where to go -__- .. they all live in db so they can just go home but i live in rowland so its not so simple. i was already in a bad mood & that just made it worse...ugh today was so bad. i just had on of those "days" where i felt like crying cus everything just piles up.
well joe was kind enough to take me to lee's with him :) had a good talk !
then talked on ze phone w/ junie <3 made each other happy. w00t. LOL.
then my mom bought me clothes cus i was sad HAHAHA. got new jeans yayy. and then now she brought me food ^_^ i love my mom. caring + best smell = my mama <3


on the plus side, my pants size is now minus three from before LOL made me happy :)

heppy mood

Is slowly turning into non heppy mood. Is it just me or is everyone extra mean and rude these days..=_=
People can be so immature and selfish..and I hate it when people take things too far... -_- Youre not funny when you try to be mean to people on purpose okie?
and I know it's just a joke but when someone degrades me and puts me down it ruins my day..and if my friends are laughing and and just watching it happen it pisses me off... if someone did that to my friend I wouldn't just keep laughing :/ that's sad lol.
Lately, all the small little things ruin my mood... and maybe it doesn't seem like it but I do remember like every bad thing someone does to me ..even if I try to forget I can't. =_= I have good memory when it comes to that hehe. Maybe that's why I treat others with more respect than some people..and I see them as a bigger and better person in my life.
K end rant. Gonna sleep. Byeeeee.

tewday

math finals today..idk how I did LOL whenever I say it's easy I do bad..but I only need like a C to keep my B on da classs.
Afterschool, davids such a -_- he would just leave me and sharon. so we walked to hmart..the LONG way cus we walked to davids car but he didn't drop us off so yeah-_-. studied there and ate and met up with devin and sarahpang. went to joes and studied for chem! kind of a fail LOL. kept getting distracted... gawsh can't a girl and a guy play together and not be accused of liking each other?! LOL hahah. left at 11ish so late so tired...

yoohoo!

today I woke up so well idk how to explain (: chem was fun cus we got to talk the whole time and Joe and I just talked about everything LOL so funny. -stomach growls- LOLOL. I'm happy I'm comfy with you and idc if you get grossed out k :)

afterschool;;
cof ...got kathy as my buddy dangit . T_T sigh oh well but she's kinda entertaining I guess ..-_- LOL but yay got group D with mizz jenny kim once again! fate :') got yummy food from cof but gawd kathy just ruins it and made me wanna throw up. the whole time jenny was just helping me with her and HAHAHA so funny . "love meeee tenderr love meee sweeet~~" "can u take pictcha of me lik dis" -poses with :o face- oh and can't forget when she ate jennys hair tie HAHA!! and jennys karems new gf LOLahsjIwj dang jenny gettin all dem cof kids ;)

ahhh my sisters laugh is so annoying ...she laughs JUST like her best friend and when she comes over it's like double times worse =_= sgskdjalahsh
k time to do my 3 minute workout !!!