why is it that every single holiday or birthday we always get into huge arguments? not just fighting where we're yelling but to the point where we'll all leave the house and just not come home til the next day.
i understand that my dads not doing well and i get that we're financially unstable. but you dont have to go cuss at our faces and take the car and leave. i'm the one trying to find jobs and everything and when i actually find one you get all pissed off and tell me that i need to get good grades when im trying to help the family. i don't care if im going to be tired or if we have to fire ajuma. having an ajuma is such a waste and its just spoiling me and my sister more and more. a thousand a month for her to just cook and clean and pick us up is not worth it. its not like we're going to have a maid with us everywhere we go.
why can't we just clean and do laundry and cook.. i've been doing it for me and lauren recently and all we need to do is try harder if ajumas gone. just face the fact that i'm grown up now and i can't always rely on an ajuma or my friends for rides every where i go.
i'll work, do chores, and pick up my sister, and now i'll actually have rides to wherever i need to go. whats the big problem? -_-

yay now youre back home.. time for more yelling.
want to leave so bad.

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and why is it that you guys let my brother get a new bmw when he was junior and let him do whatever? you guys got him new phones whenever he wanted it and gave him what he wanted whenever. he never even got a job and i'm really trying hard to help you guys. i'm sorry i'm not smart like him and got straight a's every single year and goes to uc berkeley. okay, i'm not a super genius that doesn't even have to try to get good grades.
i'm the one taking my time to get a job even when i have cof, tues/wed 3hr long band practices, and fri praise/football games. i'm the one who doesn't ask for a new phone all the time even though my phones the worst phone in the whole world and turns off every thirty minutes and that it's overdue for like 7 months. i'm the one who just wants to drive so we won't need an ajuma, so i can get to wherever i need to cus you guys all complain, so i can pick up my sister, etc. i'm the one who doesn't care if we can't eat out or if i can't get the money to eat out with my friends. don't you see.. i'm really trying to help and all i get is nothing.